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Hi @Griffballchamp. We're here if you need us. Don't worry.

I'm Rowan, 20, trans male. I write poetry, write stories, cook, garden, build things, program, a couple other things.
I'm tired of the abuse and CSA I've endured and still have to deal with every day being dismissed by people claiming to be feminists. I'm tired of only being treated like a man when it's convenient for them. I'm tired of having to share queer spaces with people that smile and call me their "sister" and try to hit on me. I'm tired of being seen as a dirty predator because my sex drive is so high. I'm tired of people always assuming I want it because I'm a man. I'm tired of people overstepping my boundaries and treating my emotions as weakness. I'm tired of my appearance *still* being the only gauge of my worth to people. I'm tired of being objectified. I'm *tired*.

Sorry for my dumb. What is CSA?

Child sexual abuse.

OOF

Sorry

It's okay, I'm sorry if that was a little too Much

No its ok, we all have our own pain to bear

My emotional pain has starting taking a physical toll on me.

I'm sorry...I feel that though
People assume men can't have eating disorders
But the only way I could eat when I broke up with my narcissist ex was when my little sister hounded me to

A mod can invite you in shortly @Rowan's Fuxedo

Or the other way around. Im to depressed to cook for myself so its cheeseburgers and milkshakes 24/7. Why do I care if I get fat? My wife pays no attention to me anyways.

I welcome the heart attack it eventually will cause!!! LOLOLOLOL

Hope I drop dead in her cold lap!! HAHA

Hey, Welcome @Rowan's Fuxedo!

Thank you 💚
I'm sorry...you deserve someone that loves you and let's you know it too. Someone who doesn't let the love and connection die.
Two of my three exes got so Fed Up with me and said that they felt "responsible for my wellbeing" and acted like I wanted them to saw their fucking arm off and give it to me when I just wanted the first one to call me after I got out of the hospital, and wanted the second one to respond to me talking about my body image issues and someone insulting me with more than just "that's shitty"
Do you know how much I bent over backwards for these assholes??? And I get tossed away whenever I'm not the model man. Fuck pillow princes.

Oh hey,,,lol

Right? Im a techie kind of guy, numbers wiz, love electronics. But when I cant fix a whatchamacallit under the hood of her car that I pay for, im not a real man.

That's a really shocking lack of empathy @Rowan's Fuxedo. I'd expect more from a friend than that - never mind a partner.

Like, sorry U married a nerd that doesnt look like one. Your fault.

@Griffballchamp That is pretty damn frustrating.

Well it's 2020, tell her to take care of it her damn self then. She's an adult.
It's absolutely valid to not know cars though, that shit can get complicated, I only know because I'm learning it now when I was never allowed to touch overly masculine subjects

And yeah like,,,,I tend to attract narcissistic parasites for some fucking reason.

Oh damn, and I just read your earlier post @Rowan's Fuxedo. That's really horrible stuff to happen to anyone.

Yeah. I have no idea how to fix a car, except maybe to change the wheel.

I should have saw it before though. Both her parents are bi-polar. Her dad is bi-polar, a diagnosed narcissist, has severe PTSD and a few years ago I googled some weird shit in his medicine cabinet and turns out they are anti-psychotics. Over the last few years, she has become just like him. Im worried for my future.

Damn, that's a bit of a combo.

Yeah.

Divorce doesn't seem like an option. I make $3000 a month and live in Seattle area where the cheapest studio apartment is $1000-$1200 a month in a place I would'nt let my kids out on the playground.

It's alright. I'll never be great but what I can do is support my little sister so that she can be and succeed where I failed. Where I didn't have guidance and had to learn the hard way..
The only guy here that knows car stuff and he's trans 👀 ~~my tag line is a tranny to fix your tranny...I'll see myself out~~

Yeah I feel that...I don't stigmatize those with mental health issues, but I can't stand people who can't cope with them and let them hurt other people. I try so fucking hard to not let my shit affect other folk and it seems like some of them just don't care.
I'm sorry you're trapped....you deserve love and outside support. You are not expendable, you're a king with your own strengths and reason for existing. You're wonderful 💚

AWWWWW

Thanks! Same to you!

Of course 💚 my DMs are always open to anyone that needs to talk about anything. Trust me, I've heard it *all*

Im soooo not looking forward to tomorrow. I hate Vday.

Vday? Veterans Day?

Oh, Valentine's. Lol

I think I will just get her some flowers, say No thank you to the pity sex, and go jerk off and go to sleep early.