I advise you just sit back and relax, Steave. Take a breather and just enjoy the day until it's gone. Paranoia is a tough thing to tackle, and minister, but i'm certain you can fix it.

I dont like the thought of giving up my privacy.

If I give in my privacy, i cease to exist outside of the barriers of the data they have.

Any physical aspect therefore is only an extension of the data they have, rather than the data being a extension of oneself.

To give up one's privacy and sacredness of oneself is ceasing to exist.

You're no longer autonomous, due to the machine of Predictive Marketing being able to soon predict your every move, your every purchase. You just turn into a dog with a piece of meat dangling in front of it, embracing that the meat controls where you go, rather than trying to look away and see the world for what it is from your *own* perspective.

Another complicated fallacy that holds together the fragility of my own sanity.

Maybe i'll move on to something else, but i'll still be fooling myself if i belive this illusion known as control.

Once sanctity of control is lost within my mind, I'll fully dissapear. My personality will cease to exist, really.

I've come close to that before, and it's not bliss. It's just pain that you learn to endure, and the wound never heals.

Does it really matter what I say? Should I even rely on a re-assuring response, or a cold denial to define the terms of reality i've set upon myself?

Well in truth, Steave, that is a glass half empty perspective. Where as me, a person who can definitely see the benefits of predictive marketing, sees this as an absolute win. I mean legally, people are not allowed to interrupt your private business nor force you to reveal what you do on a personal level.

However what you do and say isn't exactly private. I mean, hear me out;

Say you were to go to a store, you walked up and down Aisle A, you were looking at Canned Beans and refused to look at Canned Soup. You take the Canned Beans and you walk off, purchasing that Can o' Beans, right? Say more people do so. With this, a man can infer that there are more people here willing to purchase more Canned Beans over Canned Soup. Meaning they can make changes over what you and many other people have done.

Now nobody here on this earth has surrendered privacy on their own accord. Everybody always has a failsafe and nobody is actually allowed to see that side of you. Your privacy is your privacy. Your face? That's - that's not private. People look at you every day and will forget you akin to another thousand faces they'll see. What you say? Well, what you say is what you say. Nobody is forcing you to say anything except for yourself.

I think you're pretty hard-set on your own thoughts here, however i'm just thinking out-loud and proposing a new avenue of thought.

It sounds like an illusion to say your face and what you do is not private, but you maintain privacy of self.

Im trying to look at what you say with an open mind but it really gives me no escape, and I feel like if I go into one of my episodes again where I start relinquishing control of my own brain I could just let it happen and see if i die or just cease to exist while something else takes over.

What a cheap escape

Now reminder, this is within the set rules that we are in a public area where what you say and do is within the view of everybody else.

However within your home, you are within your private area, your castle, and all that.

But I do tell you this, Steave, if you are willing to continue to hear some stranger drone on how you can potentially help yourself,

Don't follow this path. Ignorance is bliss and you are drowning in it. I can tell. You don't believe what you say or think because deep down you know you're able to change and you're merely thinking this off as some major event that needs to be over-analyzed for the sake of it.

Don't think of death, or escape. Escaping is a poor-man's way of running. Men do not run. We think and we adapt. Think about your situation and adapt to it. Ponder the choices again, don't dismiss them as if they're not actually feasible. What can drive you from these thoughts? What brought you here? How can you change? All of these questions are examples, it is up to YOU to fix yourself and change that terrible mindset of yours.

Because to me it seems as if you've been consumed by fear. It's terrible.

You just need that leap my friend. Don't do anything drastic. Humans aren't built for it. Everything requires a slow and methodic rhythm. Open the blinds. Just open them for once, I know you've done it before and refused to embrace it but do it again and study the outside world.

Your privacy is without a doubt sacred, however you must not revel in it. Do not be fearful of Big Brother, do not worry. Fear is something that can control you and will hijack your mind, your spirit, and your humanity. You have become what you loathe. You've the tools, you know you do. You can break these chains.

I dunno. I may be getting too crazy about all of this man.

You've got some very good insight and im thankful for it

Better than any fucking shit where all the counseler wants to do is make sure you hear yourself talk and keep you talking

**NOT GUNNA GET ANYWHERE IF I JUST KEEP BOUNCING THE WORDS BACK TO MYSELF**

They only want to get paid. They want that pay-check. You've got everything you need. They just like to waste your time. You need that control again man. Seriously. I cannot repeat myself again but you seriously know what you need to do, but you're afraid to do so because its change, you're opening up to a new rhythm and you don't like it. Nobody does. However its the best cure I can prescribe.

I'm not a well learned guy at all. I dropped out of High School and my schooling was absolutely terrible. But I realize my error and I want to show everybody that knowledge is important. Mathematics, Science, yes, that's all important but there's one thing you need to master.

__Yourself__
You need to understand yourself. I've met so many people who are all the same. Nobody is willing to show what they truly feel. All of the people that i've met have struggled like me yet don't wish to tell me how to fix it. So I took it in my own hands to help people on their way to greatness. Knowledge is key, no matter what. Memes, shitposts, personal shit, no matter what.

You need to change Steave. You have to. I've only met you from this board but I know a little bit about you, enough to propose that you're able to change man. You've got this. I've got faith in you dude. 👍

Anyways man, i've got to go. I genuinely hope you fix your situation. God bless you and good night dude.

Thanks for your insight. It's much more than just education these days, so dont sell yourself short.

In order to live we must escape our comfort zone little by little

Hope you get out of this pit you're in steave

And sorry if i came across as a dick earlier

My brother just rage quit on me in Mario Kart 8, now I have no one to play with and I feel bad.

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I'm sorry fren

It's harder and harder to pull myself out of bed every day

Just keep doing it

and dont stop

life wont change if you stay in bed

Same tbh

I struggle to stay the fuck awake when I first wake up

its something that's been happening recently.

Even when I fucking shower, I just instinctly close my eyes and just sit on the fucking ground, back against the wall.

At one point that stuff got so bad for me I'd just get out of bed then fall asleep on the floor