A trap tried to rape me when I left for the night **twice**

Sean, my crush, is a felon but I feel much more comfortable around him because he's never intentionally cornered me or said/did anything to creep me out. I had to initiate that I'm attracted to him before he started flirting and joking with me

oof

Aww, cute

Good luck sheep

did you report the janitor situation to your boss?

Yup

And both of my supervisors

Line cooks now know that they need to kick him out of the kitchen if they see him, and security is aware as well

I still like my army method for sleep, y'all are neurotic

...I tried it and it was not effective

only thing that's worked for me is a sudoku book (no phone).

get the hardest one you can find

basically stare at a number grid until you pass out

Haha, I've got textbooks for mental exersise.

trying to bore the shit out of your brain

you want it to be something that's pretty hard to make any progress on

Idk if you've used ambient or white noise, but sounds of rain usually help me get to sleep

Not a good sleep, but still sleep

Yeah, i've tried that and on every occasion, it does not help.

Fuck I wish I wasn’t so socially awkward. Even though I have a gf and love her so much that she means the world to me I can’t initiate contact. I wish I was a chad so bad

Lord

Wat

You should feel comfortable saying shit to your GF. Maybe you should do it more often so you're more comfortable, unless she's exhibiting a behaivor that discourages you initating contact.

things only get easier once you give yourself permission

that works for both good and bad things

Yeah

IDK about you guys, but I absolutely will not sleep with someone unless I feel comfortable enough to say whatever is on my mind

same, it's a trust thing for me

If I'm not comfortable enough to fart around them, I'm not letting them stick it in me lmfao

It’s not that I don’t trust her or that she acts like she wouldn’t like it. Frankly, I can’t really tell why I’m so retarded about this. I just still love her so much but I can’t say/ do some of the things I wish I would were I not so awkward

She pretty much always initiates intimate contact and stuff like that. I’m a really socially awkward and because of that she likes to fluster me literally whenever possible

Hmm, that seems to be part of a similar issue with Sean, he thinks I'm like a small innocent child and tells me not to curse because "it hurts my ears!"; to be fair though I've given him that impression because of my sweet girl work persona as well as crying a couple times at work

Just tell her that you want more but are too awkward to ask

And then from there you can talk about it

Ok

Communication is really important

She'll appreciate you mentioning it without.. you know, bluntly demanding it or taking it

Okay

It’s not about sex or anything. That shit’s kinda overrated. I mean just giving her long warm hugs.

It kinda weighs a toll on me