@MufflePuff I want high value for raises/bonuses/work but care less otherwise.

Ahh, well.... I don't want a job.

@secrite wot time do u wake up?

Makes sense for that though.

@JDB 0500-600

how do u have 4 hours to study

when do u get into work

@MufflePuff I don't care that you don't care, but your body cares. You have two different brains. Your system 1 (reptile brain) cares deeply about others' opinion. Your system 2 really doesn't care because it's logical. System 1 is a million times faster though and can override system 2 in a moment of weakness

roko why do i find it so easy to not care then?

Yes. Meditation helps. That's why HHH also advocates it. I should do so too more often

my resting state, with no effort, idc

Ehhhhh... I disagree @Roko. What are the long-term effects of my reptile brain not getting this validation?

@JDB That's the whole reason I talk to you so much. You can override system 1. You're special in a way and I want to learn that trait.

@MufflePuff You will feel like shit and you won't know why. It's physical pain coming from inside.

I guess....

maybe mufflepuff is like me too

@Roko I know this will sound really dumb but I've been doing a 'passive meditation' by leaving my phone turned off in my work drawer. I embrace the slow moments of life without any distraction. I sit down to my computer to work. Otherwise, I am mentally freed up.

I've been a social monk more and more the older I get and I'm happier each year because I'm living truly for myself.

@secrite That's a good idea. I think that we're generally overstimulated though and our bodies cannot handle it. Minimalism and meditation would be good habits to pick up

I'm more productive every year.

@JDB I usually wake up 0500 and work on the side until 0900. I work 5 mins away so I get in around 0905-0910.

oh wow nice

The last thing I want is external validation.

in order to reach nirvana, we have to let go

@MufflePuff Why? And how do you feel usually?

too much stimulation currently

Cloud 9 every day.

And because external validation is useless.

@Roko I've been leaving the phone locked away in the drawer the past 2 weeks and it's still hard. I randomly feel like I get a buzz in the pants (not even the good kind!) but then remember it's only for work.

muffle were u the person who uses google calendar?

Internal validation is all that matters. Not that it matters more, it is all that matters. And every day that I live and every day that I progress, THAT validates that fact. Which makes me even happier.

@secrite That's good! I'm not strong enough for that yet. I als have these phantom feelings of my phone in my pocket buzzing even though it might be on my desk.

I switched all my friends to Discord, too. That helped a lot.

i think that a core thing that makes us happy is daily progress - it's fulfilling - once you experience this for long enough (i experienced this daily when i was 16 through powerlifting) you realise that you're untouchable

@JDB oh my bad, I didn't see that. Yeah, but IOS calendar not Google.

gotya

@JDB Absolutely.

It's one reason I am questioning my habit of playing games. I feel like I am hacking my desire to achieve things when I play games. I drain myself of wanting to achieve as much when I play too many games. It's weird.

right now - i am anxious sometimes because of my financial situation - for this i am speaking to roko for advice - once i move on from this i will be untouchable

for me, i like the idea of working in 3 month blocks (so splitting the year into quarters) and setting out goals for each quarter

it's like how a boxer prepares for a big fighg