5 years now in the field

Yeah. Same.

you a natural grinder

yes

Doing my trades since 18.

this is motivating to read

but i regret not getting a harder degree or a masters or even phd

killing it @The Tradesman

since i'm stuck in a hedonistic mentality

I could enter the adf as a tradesnan, but I'd be doing menial work.

computer science is fun

@hel that's part of the problem man... i feel no motivation and have no goals anymore. I feel so fucking flat.

@shadowlessnexus fuck yeah it is

I'm a qualified inspector in my field, but no one's hiring me because of my age.

black pill-like mentality

So, I'm stuck as a tradie.

ok

1 seco

@The Tradesman it's because you're talented and young... i've had the same issues... especially being a white dude in tech... no one wants to hire me over ANYONE else.

i interviewed three times at google and amazon

lol

passed all technical interviews

CompetIng with pajeets.

never heard back

@hel I love this channel. checking it out now.

"rAciAl DiVerSity"

What about startups? You could grow with them.

"GenDEr DiVersITy"

@The Tradesman yeah i am debating moving there now but right now i am stuck in a unique role so i am "trying out" different roles within technology every 3 months so i can see what i like doing more

it's actually pretty cool my company went for it

i am a highly paid intern basically - moving around and digesting what everyone does

then in 2020 they're going to offer me a few roles based on performance and such

I so wanna rewatch fight club

i've worked in penetration testing, systems engineering, db admin, storage admin, devops, back-end dev/admin, compliance, security ops, etc.

it's such a good movie

i watched it was a really religious friend and he barely handled it lol

well duh

he felt so weird about it but he's been texting me about it

especially that scene..

“What you have to understand, is your father was your model for God.

If you're male and you're Christian and living in America, your father is your model for God. And if you never know your father, if your father bails out or dies or is never at home, what do you believe about God?

What you end up doing is you spend your life searching for a father and God.

What you have to consider is the possibility that God doesn't like you. Could be, God hates us. This is not the worst thing that can happen.”

It's from the book. the scene was much shorter.