get in music fag

im listening to all of nevermind for the 40th time in a week

bastard

O:

should’ve watermarked it

yes

god im miserable

^^^^

Same

About to start smoking to kill myself sooner

oh word

sounds like a plan

@MooseMuffin good idea

i just want to see a fucking therapist

Pock, I'll probably will do that tbh
I don't think a therapist can help me sadly

i dont think therapy itself can help me either but drugs might

me2

I don't want to be reliant on pills

i really dont care about being reliant at this point

i just want to stop feeling like shit

I see

If you do get on it, tell me how that goes

ya I didn’t wanted to get put on meds so I never went to therapy

went to a psychologist once, but never again

ive been before but i stopped going because i didnt like the therapist

They wanted to put me on stuff but I was under eighteen and I wasn’t flat out telling them that I wanted to kill myself so it was a harder process for them to actually get me the medication

Never been to a therapist before, think it's kinda of waste of time

yeah

it was especially a waste of time for me because I don’t really talk to people that I’m not really close with

so in order for it to actually be effective, I would’ve had to be on meds

which I don’t want

I can talk to random people but on the inside I'm dying

I can talk to people like this, but face to face I really struggle

I feel dumb

real dumb hours

Ya

Unironically I used to stutter pretty bad when talking to people irl

oof, that’s rough