Nyet

I don't know why you're so anxious then.

I think you don'ty remember your mom well enough.

Which is fine because it would be around 2-3-4 years.

Isolation is kind of a funky thing, does a lot of things to a lot of types. I definitely feel you, I struggled with those kinds of feelings myself in my younger years trying to understand people and holding on to that sort of deep seated longing for validation. It's easy to find in depravity if you slip down that slope, but it doesn't last.

yeah I mean I'm definitely not avoidant

I welcome people wanting to get close if anything

But yeah I'm sure my parents being cunts had a lot if not all to do with it

They cheated on eachother like multiple times and had me involved in it when I was like 8

clownish

Unresponsive parents are 80% of all fucked up.

Yep, that'll do it

Fatherlessness, even when the father is physically there, fucks up everyone who experiences it. It's why we as a community should put an emphasis on fatherhood if we're trad for the long haul. Strong fathers produce strong sons. That's why the saints are such badasses.

Bad parents suck

Vitality spiting out wisedom tonight.

Are you a boomer?

Maybe somewhere deep inside lmao

Little young though

what do

repair parental relationship or move on

both

Repair your relationship with them, forgive them (for your own sake not theirs) and move on

hmmm, I guess it's worth a shot

Even though I know they won't be receptive

I'd just move on tbh.

Going back might make things more difficult.

But that's just me.

An avoidant edgelord.

It's not really important either way, you've left your parents house or at least must be on the way, it's too late for them to fix what they failed to do. What you need is a new father, and where you're headed is a hunger for the best Father, our Father. Go to church, start reading the book of John, and maybe Romans, start to understand that you worship a father that not only loves you, but is present and wants you to come home. The parable of the prodigal son is a real, spiritual truth, He rejoices for your return. He longs to give you the love you never got, and to satisfy your soul, because great, and mighty, and powerful, and terrible, and overwhelming as He is, He loves you. Specifically. And He wants you home. He wants to wash you clean and help you stay that way. He's the only Father that's going to do, and even though your own father never did his job to lead you there you are still welcome.

Was this the final redpill, Christ and Mary replacing inadequate parents

Big if true

Maybe that's why the theme of Mary is so important in Cathodoxy <:thonk:559771775119130624>

also the archetypes present in Saints

The kingdom of God will separate all evil and replace it. God will make all things new

Fuck these really are wholesome hours.

I'm less nervous about my test tomorrow.

Thanks Moz.

w-were all g-gonna make it

This but unironically.

Don't stutter again cunt.

WERE ALL GONNA MAKE IT FAGGOTS