i need to think about it

No - it's okay man - I honestly don't know how to explain or if I gave you anything to work with.

Honestly, I have never dealt with anything *close* to your situation.

But in all of MY shit - and worst moments - I've found the only way to keep climbing is to convince yourself you have to - and to remind yourself you only have your own hands and feet.

It helps when / if other people are able / willing to help, for sure.

But in the end, you're the only person you got at 3a.

yeah, for sure

Just offering my insight - I like you a lot dude - I wanna see you come out on top

thanks folk

appreciate it, m8

just lookin out

but im pretty fucked up

We're all fucked.

It's all fucked.

I just wanted to pipe in and ramble because, like I said, I can't trust anyone to do or mean anything they say - and because people have been saying ""look on the bright side"" my whole life, and I've developed a pretty deep running fear that whatever's ""wrong"" with me ( and my negative outlook ) isn't ""fixable"".

But I can ""fix me"" ( or try ) until my own company is at least tolerable in this mess.

Because I can't stress enough how important or how hard it is to value and take care of **yourself**, *first*.

can't say we're all fucked

some are, some don't

but sure i am

X to doubt - if I've learned anything, it's that we're all dealing with some fucked up aspect of this mess or another

Just be careful with **math** because numbers can be **decisive**

of course we're all dealing with problems

but doesn't mean everyone has the same problems

some have worst problems than others

No - but if everything *is* fucked, then we're all dealing with symptoms of it - ergo we're **all** fucked

Not all as much as others or vice versa - we're all dealing with different shit, for sure.

yeah sort of

Great year so far

Guess what

got the news my uncle just died

I'm so sorry dude. . .

ty

I'm sorry to hear that, my grandfather died a few days ago as well, it is hard to cope with at times but as long as they arent suffering

sorry about that

Appreciate it. How are you holding up?

A bit shocked, but I'll feel worse in a minute notice

Hang in there, its tough, but think how our loved ones would want us to feel

we're all sad

specially my cousins

he was 63

their mother disappeared a long time ago. Found her body on a bathtub

what a fucking shitty life

y'all call me doomer, but I have reasons to be one

I understand, life can be ridiculously hard at times. But we pull through it, and make it better for ourselves over time as we improve and get better at coping. That is very rough, you definitely don't have it easy but that should mean you will be among the strongest

*sigh* oh boi