thats the thing

people that dont make those who do seethe

and those people quite frankly are like my family

do you really think having people to play vidya with is an achievement to make others seethe over

they dont always aprove of what i say or do

amazing

but they do always support me and are there in times of need

now i wonder if the seething cucks here can say the same

lmao

Uber do you really meditate or u just meming?

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you know what pisses me off about you?
Flaunting around your friends like a badge. It's incredibly narcissistic and reduces your "friends" to nothing but status symbols. I would never degrade mine like that because they actually *are* family to me. You can keep bolstering your ego if you want I can't stop you just be aware that you sound like a sociopath.

I started about two weeks ago. I like larping as an esoteric but meditation does have real benefits

if you do it long enough at least

which I havent

yet

I just close my eyes and blank my mind, unwillingly I am medidating

Like 10 mins

ye thats about it

On work breaks

I do about 30

although it feels like 15

after weaking up I sit up against the wall in half lotus and just dpo it

I dont use a timer

I tried to get into it a year ago with timer and gradually building up my time but that was too autistic and didnt work

now I am doing it intuitively

I just do squats to get in rhythm

After me break

After me mind break

sounds good

I call it mind break

Lmao

wel lthats what it is bascialyl

I have a hard time keeping my mind blank tbh but sometimes I notice that the thoughts are detached form me, liek I am not the one rambling in my midn but that the thoughts just happen

very weird

Yeah, it's not good to verbalize

Your thoughts

Inside

Better to think in images

well thats what I do all day every day, I am constantly mentally monologuing as it is, like every human does. The point of meditation is to "suppress" that for a time. To lift the burden of thought so to speak. I listened to a lecture of Alan Watts the other day (I thought he was soem new age faggot but he is quite cool actually) and he talked abotu calming your mind. He said that usually in meditation you count breaths because the brain can only focus on one task and thus the "monkeymind" shuts up. But he called that forced stillness and while helpful not ideal.
I think thats where what I described comes in. I don'T suppress my thoughts but I let them flow freely without becoming involved in them. I keep breathing steadily without being aware and I think without being aware. I had this only a few times but it feels liek you are falling completely out of time. As Mr. Watts called it you are supposed to listen. So I did. It's kind of liek passive thinking and talking about it doesnt really work but whatever

its liek you are watching someone else think while *knowing* that its you