Message from @uhm
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I just close my eyes and blank my mind, unwillingly I am medidating
Like 10 mins
ye thats about it
On work breaks
I do about 30
although it feels like 15
after weaking up I sit up against the wall in half lotus and just dpo it
I dont use a timer
I tried to get into it a year ago with timer and gradually building up my time but that was too autistic and didnt work
now I am doing it intuitively
I just do squats to get in rhythm
After me break
After me mind break
sounds good
I call it mind break
Lmao
wel lthats what it is bascialyl
I have a hard time keeping my mind blank tbh but sometimes I notice that the thoughts are detached form me, liek I am not the one rambling in my midn but that the thoughts just happen
very weird
Yeah, it's not good to verbalize
Inside
Better to think in images
well thats what I do all day every day, I am constantly mentally monologuing as it is, like every human does. The point of meditation is to "suppress" that for a time. To lift the burden of thought so to speak. I listened to a lecture of Alan Watts the other day (I thought he was soem new age faggot but he is quite cool actually) and he talked abotu calming your mind. He said that usually in meditation you count breaths because the brain can only focus on one task and thus the "monkeymind" shuts up. But he called that forced stillness and while helpful not ideal.
I think thats where what I described comes in. I don'T suppress my thoughts but I let them flow freely without becoming involved in them. I keep breathing steadily without being aware and I think without being aware. I had this only a few times but it feels liek you are falling completely out of time. As Mr. Watts called it you are supposed to listen. So I did. It's kind of liek passive thinking and talking about it doesnt really work but whatever
its liek you are watching someone else think while *knowing* that its you
experiencing this makes it not hard to believe that some people who mediate for years feel like they are melting into their environment
which I experienced on lsd for about a second
involuntarily tho
creeped me the fuck out
new pasta?!
Hmmmm
I should be writing an essay for my uni not talking about being a faggot
Lel
True
no i mean thats what I am actually supposed to do right now but I keep checkign discord
Why though?
because I am fuckign addicted
Addiction is your way of life
Get addicted to uni also
I cant
its so boring