But I'm gonna be flashin through it in my head for a while looking for symbolism, now that you mention death. . .

I've had dreams about the river styx. To be honest I think it referenced change of life.

Welcome aboard crab?

idk man - sounds like my skittery ass needs to run around and sort out some land shit first. . .

The only reason I can think of this ship popping up all of a sudden is. . .

. . . There's not *as much left* that I have to get done. . .

Word. Could be. Maybe you've got stuff you want to handle locally, but feel like leaving too. Like.... you have obligations "at home" but want a change of pace too

Well, here's the fun part. . .

I pretty much ( and yes Kings, this is NOT how you do it ) sabotaged my relationship.
SPECIFICALLY to open up my future tbh.

I could have just left her - I took some much harsher avenues - but I really couldn't stay with someone who kept telling me about ""how excited they are to spend the next 5+ years together""

Nah bruh, I've had that option too. Sometimes it just happens that way. The sabatage.

Ah. It happens man. Done it in the past myself

Yeah. Exactly.

"" *Babe, I'm sorry, but if you don't like guns, and you won't grow your hair out, and you have a career in mind, then kindly let me go **b 0 0 l***. ""

But she wouldn't even let me talk about it. . .

Good choice to leave then

Things ( why am I rambling THIS ) fell off about a month ago, when I tried to come down on her ( HARD ) about how badly I needed my own space.

And she sort of just took it personally, said "You have a lot to process. And you need someone to talk to."

Okay.

*You're Not. WRONG.*

but that's one wild fucking way of saying "" I don't wanna listen to your personal shit anymore ""

Word

sounds like severe incompatibility if anti gun

For the past several weeks "Hey lol, doomer shit"

"that sounds shitty"

"wow I'm sorry to hear that"

"that must be tough"

Look - I'm not asking YOU to sort MY problems

but I would love SOME understanding

above obligatory pleasantries. . .

^

Get yourself sorted before next long term relationship of course. But you did good ending it.

Man - fuck relationships.

That last bit is always rough

I'm boutta go on a travelling vacation.

It is man. It fucking *is*.

@mcguyver123 I'm skimming specifics.

I did some fucked up things.

Nothing abusive or violent.

But nothing ideal.

Self improvement is fight club and masturbation. You're on your way.

We all make mistakes in relationships, even stuff that maybe seen as abusive.

>Fight club reference talking about masturbation for the plebs that havent watched it<