Yea, once I have kids, I wont be sending them to public school... well, probably not, because ill probably still be poor but with more mouths to feed

Well I hope not

You still in school?

Nah, im in my 30s

Cool cool

I'm 30 and I'm just waking up too man

Yea, seems to be a pretty common theme these days

But I was tricked into never wanting a family, now im 34, so I'm trying to find a woman to date... but boy, slim pickings

Ya spend your 20s as an atheist anarch and you wake up and realize all the time you wasted being a fucking loser

lol TRUTH

Yeah man

I sure did level up a bunch of imaginary caracters in video games and smoked a bunch of pot... but not much else

Whooooo technically I'm still doing that but I'm also leveling up my spirituality and my values and my conviction to those values so *shrug* it's a long road

Nothing wrong with video games, but I've come to learn that life is about balance

Yep yep

You got it man. And I was in that same trap. My ex wife parents told us not to waste time with kids and to enjoy our lives.

Yeah how ironic is that coming from the folks with t
5 kids...

Wow, the parents said that? Hateful

Yep yep and the stuff they did after our divorce is even more so. Oh well. They will suffer and die.

What else is there in life?

Exactly man.

So blind and stupid and selfish

hey, we were tricked. My parents did their best, I was a selfhish a-hole

My mom begged us for grandkids and I was like "mom shut up". Can lead a horse to water...but if that horse is a self involved fucktard...

It's funny how I even got to this point in waking up, would you believe if I said Trump winning in 2016 started my journey? I didn't even vote for him, but I had to learn why he won... and down the rabbit hole I went

Maybe a year later, I had a pretty good grasp on whats happening in the world... basically the exact opposite of what I thought. Embarrassing now to I look back, but most friends all took the same path. Losers :\

Dude

Right on

Like I said

Welcome to the winning team

The trash you left behind is just that

I'm just glad God reached out and got your attention one way or another

The truth will always be there if people wanna find it

Indeed, embracing God was a scary thing. I was one of those "you believe in a bearded man in the sky" people. The type of person I would jsut feel sorry for at this point in my life

Hahaha yep

But when you drop the whole man in the sky thing and accept God as this ever present...i dunno how to even describe it. The way Jesse articulates it in the silent prayer vibes with me.

I even tried to find a church to join, but I live in Florida and they all seem fake. Flying gay flags and women preachers... even I can tell they are false

Florida. Wow

Trash bag state that lol

I knew so many skanks there

Gross place lol