Buddhism doesn't/

is it? what if you are wrong and there is no god waiting to embrace you on the other side?

It doesn't matter whatsoever. You already realised in yourself the internalisation of the ultimate meaning.

and you'll die happily with believing in it?

Could you imagine the euphoria that martyrs feel? But you have to **fully** know it.

isn't the rational mind and intelligence and wit is a curse?

The mind is dead. What have your done to overcome it?

If the crisis of existence is to find meaning. Then martyrs have the cheat codes.

it is not dead as long as i'm able to type in here, at least in this reality

i agree

do you sometimes wish still being a devoted christian and not thinking about it?

All the time.

Jealous even.

there was a time around 10-11 years ago

that i decided something was wrong and i decided to analyze the social interactions

and imitated the chads, eventually became one

if you are familiar with the concept of chads, from the internet meme dialect

I am.

and for around 2-3 years, i was fully a chad

i haven't even thought about the past and labeled my younger self as a "loser"

then one day it came to me, like a lightning striked upon my brain, out of nowhere

i asked what the fuck am i doing

and what is the point

and why

three questions

RIP penis.

hahaha

indeed

i still miss those times

i wish it never had this awakening or whatever, more like someone casted a curse on me

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But like I said earlier, it kind of feels like I (you?) have passed through some kind of gate of meaning, now you are free to realise a higher level of meaning than before. It is like a system upgrade.

correct, now i loathe and crush chads in my daily life, missing those times is more like romanticising the past

Good for you, if that is important to you.

maybe, it's in my "having fun" quota

nihilism actually made me more free, you're right on that

and i believe pure reason eventually reaches nihilism no matter where it comes from, it's a stop if not the final stop

that's where peterson is wrong

the (((((((philosopher))))))))))) peterson

who is actually nietzsche, kant and jung combined