Message from @dimidarn
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I'm taking a diet pill that contains an anti depressant because im not ready to explain my trauma to a new therapist <:thinking:726878987837636698>
Lmfao
the thing is, you don't want meds to change your personality
My old meds did that, made me shake, and made me see things, I kid you not
and the doctors were like "Mhmm, sounds like everythings fine; keep taking them"
Don't do that
Yup I get that, but thought patterns are what therapy is for, if it’s just that you think too hard on something, sometimes just recognizing that you’re falling into that pattern of obsession will help
Mine just makes me nauseous and makes drinking unpleasant, which isn't a bad thing
I'm straight edge. No drugs, barely take headache medicine. If something upsets me I listen to heavy metal until all is better
You sound like mighty <:KekFull:802560939500503041>
but I get it if you need it
my hands shook for around four or five years no joke
and every doctor was like "that's okay"
It was literally hard to play piano
This was my first thought. Where is that dude?
this is something I aspire to be ngl
partially because I feel like humans are spoiled
Yup, my stuff makes my hands shake too, but I’d rather have shaky hands than try to play in traffic thinking I’m invincible or end up in the hospital again lol
see that's just it
I just can't deal with the ideation anymore
I also can't take a full dose 😂
So my one year of meds is closer to like.. 3 years.
I'm storing the unopened bottles in the freezer 🤷🏻♀️
My psych only gives me like two months worth of refills so I have to keep coming back <:SadPepe:801485397678489660>
They are pretty heavily controlled tho lol
I could use to feel nothing for a bit
how does one not feel anything? like...nothing?
right now I'm torn between to places, ngl
on one hand, humanity is spoiled. We treat every little thing and expect instant gratification, leading to us using methods that weaken us in many ways. We treat things like hot showers as necessary for human survival and we wash our hair every day with chemicals in the 3% of the world's available water that's drinkable. Most of us are fat, most of us are depressed, and many of us lack purpose, having invested our time into getting headshots in video games rather than being productive and sustaining ourselves. We don't even kill our own food anymore.
on the other hand, scientists and doctors work every day to make life better for everyone and I feel like rejecting their gifts is disrespectful. Hot water, medicine, and science are gifts and it comes through hard work and thousands of years of innovation. To reject it is to turn to them and say "I don't want your gift."
Have you tried going outside?
I mean, the one thing I'm not is depressed. The antidepressant controls the mild psychosis caused by the ptsd thing
oh, ptsd...that's bad. i'm sorry
Oh I’m just crazy <:KekFull:802560939500503041>
you're not crazy drac. Lazy, yes, but not crazy
Well something ain’t right in my head
lol sometimes. I'm the biggest hypocrite and I'll be the first to say that
Some dumb fuck just turned on the light right outside my damn window how the hell am I supposed to sleep with that shit <:SadPepe:801485397678489660>
but straight up I'm a person of extremes. Half of me wants to launch a film career and the other half of me wants to move to the Alaskan bush where I'll probably die, either from lazines/lack of motivation or through ignorance. Or both.
Hi Drac
Solaris <:ExcitedPepe:781198443665424424>
Oh im a bit crazy myself
Film school 💯
Hi crazy, I'm insane lol
ok but like
lumberjackcore
I'm so tired of modern life im running to a farm
I am just looking around