Message from @Drink Less Coke (mail/package)

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2021-02-25 02:38:03 UTC  

my hands shook for around four or five years no joke
and every doctor was like "that's okay"

2021-02-25 02:38:10 UTC  

It was literally hard to play piano

2021-02-25 02:38:25 UTC  

This was my first thought. Where is that dude?

2021-02-25 02:38:49 UTC  

this is something I aspire to be ngl
partially because I feel like humans are spoiled

2021-02-25 02:38:53 UTC  

Yup, my stuff makes my hands shake too, but I’d rather have shaky hands than try to play in traffic thinking I’m invincible or end up in the hospital again lol

2021-02-25 02:39:10 UTC  

see that's just it

2021-02-25 02:39:11 UTC  

I just can't deal with the ideation anymore

2021-02-25 02:39:20 UTC  

I also can't take a full dose 😂

2021-02-25 02:39:37 UTC  

So my one year of meds is closer to like.. 3 years.

2021-02-25 02:39:53 UTC  

I'm storing the unopened bottles in the freezer 🤷🏻‍♀️

2021-02-25 02:40:22 UTC  

My psych only gives me like two months worth of refills so I have to keep coming back <:SadPepe:801485397678489660>

2021-02-25 02:40:44 UTC  

They are pretty heavily controlled tho lol

2021-02-25 02:41:42 UTC  

I've considered asking them to put me back on lithium

2021-02-25 02:41:50 UTC  

I could use to feel nothing for a bit

2021-02-25 02:43:15 UTC  

how does one not feel anything? like...nothing?

2021-02-25 02:43:25 UTC  

right now I'm torn between to places, ngl

on one hand, humanity is spoiled. We treat every little thing and expect instant gratification, leading to us using methods that weaken us in many ways. We treat things like hot showers as necessary for human survival and we wash our hair every day with chemicals in the 3% of the world's available water that's drinkable. Most of us are fat, most of us are depressed, and many of us lack purpose, having invested our time into getting headshots in video games rather than being productive and sustaining ourselves. We don't even kill our own food anymore.

on the other hand, scientists and doctors work every day to make life better for everyone and I feel like rejecting their gifts is disrespectful. Hot water, medicine, and science are gifts and it comes through hard work and thousands of years of innovation. To reject it is to turn to them and say "I don't want your gift."

2021-02-25 02:44:15 UTC  

Have you tried going outside?

2021-02-25 02:44:39 UTC  

I mean, the one thing I'm not is depressed. The antidepressant controls the mild psychosis caused by the ptsd thing

2021-02-25 02:44:59 UTC  

oh, ptsd...that's bad. i'm sorry

2021-02-25 02:45:01 UTC  

Oh I’m just crazy <:KekFull:802560939500503041>

2021-02-25 02:45:21 UTC  

you're not crazy drac. Lazy, yes, but not crazy

2021-02-25 02:45:39 UTC  

Well something ain’t right in my head

2021-02-25 02:46:05 UTC  

lol sometimes. I'm the biggest hypocrite and I'll be the first to say that

2021-02-25 02:46:29 UTC  

Some dumb fuck just turned on the light right outside my damn window how the hell am I supposed to sleep with that shit <:SadPepe:801485397678489660>

2021-02-25 02:46:39 UTC  

but straight up I'm a person of extremes. Half of me wants to launch a film career and the other half of me wants to move to the Alaskan bush where I'll probably die, either from lazines/lack of motivation or through ignorance. Or both.

2021-02-25 02:46:43 UTC  

Hi Drac

2021-02-25 02:46:51 UTC  

Solaris <:ExcitedPepe:781198443665424424>

2021-02-25 02:47:02 UTC  

Oh im a bit crazy myself

2021-02-25 02:47:06 UTC  

Film school 💯

2021-02-25 02:47:12 UTC  

Hi crazy, I'm insane lol

2021-02-25 02:47:34 UTC  

ok but like
lumberjackcore

2021-02-25 02:47:42 UTC  

I'm so tired of modern life im running to a farm

2021-02-25 02:47:43 UTC  

I am just looking around

2021-02-25 02:47:51 UTC  

~~I'm never using that accursed term again, don't worry~~

2021-02-25 02:48:08 UTC  

I love how a bunch of Tumblr Lesbians have rebranded Amish and conservative culture as "Cottagecore"

2021-02-25 02:48:16 UTC  

I prefer cottagecore <:KekFull:802560939500503041>

2021-02-25 02:48:24 UTC  

Lmfao

2021-02-25 02:48:28 UTC  

Yup

2021-02-25 02:48:33 UTC  

like legit
there's nothing wrong with enjoying it
*but call it what it is*

2021-02-25 02:48:43 UTC  

*Romanticized farm culture*

2021-02-25 02:49:12 UTC  

I mean it’s like goblincore is just hoarding and kleptomania <:KekFull:802560939500503041>