Message from @Grumplebee
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I think Im about to tell the pathetic story of my life.
Here we go.
Hold on. Gotta get dinner. back in a minute.
Get ready for the most embarassing and pathetic embarassing of confessions.
Like hard core.
Doubt it
So the story starts twenty years before I was born . When my dad was.
His dad was an abusive alcholic. A real ass. He was always good to me, but to my dad? Not so much. Horrible guy, like his dad before him
Now my dad. He beat the bottle.
He got married, joined the marines, and eventually graduated college. Becomming a speech pathologist and an upstanding member of society.
But it isn't ally sunshine and rainbows.
Because he beat the bottle, never touched the stuff when I was a kid.
but he also beat my ass
and my moms
and my little sisters
and my little brothers.
for years.
until I was around fourteen, fifteen.
One day he was about to go after my mom
and I went at him
My mom's brothers are all huge 6'6" minimum
my dad is over average height and I am in between.
Now you might think that is a triump.
but after it, he sits me down and tells me the most devistating thing I have ever heard.
"When I was a kid my dad hit me too. I swore I would never do that to my wife or my kids. But I did it anyway."
You cant feel bad about that tho man
This has a massive impact on me, because I am mid adolesence and it does something inside me.
This is only a part of the story.
Shouldn't have pity for men that beat their families
So for years, I was afraid. Afraid of being in romantic relationships becuse I am afraid I will be just like him.
I see
Plus he mellowed out after that. We were always religious and he really found jesus after that,
These days he works with kids.
But it has had a negative impact on our family. Including my bro's attempted suicide two weeks after my sons birth.
Man.
I really feel like I gotta get this out, but I'll regret it when I am sober. But someone needs to hear it.
So, in addition to that I was bullied throught school.
As I might have mentioned earlier I'm obese, a hunchback, and have cerebreal palsy.
But these conditions are fairly mild.
I'm lucky I can basically function like a normal person.