First, is to let go of your anger. That is forgiveness.

But deeper forgiveness is to forget that they even harmed you.

have you apologized for holding it against them?

No...

I don't want to give my parents any power over me.

I just want to let them go.

i think that would take the power away from them

it did for me

and my best friend

my life changed over night when i did it

Can you describe it, please?

i can, but I recommend just searching up jesse videos on the topic

i might mess it up or project a bit you knwo?

I watched many of his videos.

I love them.

satan doesnt want you to forgive them

you think by harboring this judgement on them that you have some kind of power over them

or something like that

I have no anger towards them. But I have something else.

i dont want to tell you what i think

what you think*

My inner child wants my parents to make peace with Jesus and be a happy family.

i thought i had none either, if you watch jesse walk people through this, almost all of them says the same thing

yes but you can't make someone else repent and accept Jesus

you can only lead by example

and by not letting them know what they did wrong, they won't be able to repent of it

repent meaning, acknowledge what you did wrong and ask God for forgiveness

I spoke to my mom about what she did wrong, she got angry on me.

and boy does he forgive

yea they wont like it LOL

they want you under their thumb

My dad became defensive...

of course

both my parents did

they convinced themselves it was ok

Ye.

and now your life is messed up because of it

i dont know what you do

but its likely theres some kind of addiction or anxiety or sin that is hard to control

anger maybe i dont know, you dont have to tell me

Well, my life was messed up but Jesus saved me.