you model them

you see them angry you get angry

you learn to handle things the way they do

and their words sound absurd if its not what they're doing because you never seen anyone do it the way they speak

My mom never managed to rise up to my dad's standards so he beat the shit our of her. His dad used to beat his mom too. And he (my dad) idolises his dad.

damn

have you forgiven?

I think forgiveness has multiple layers.

First, is to let go of your anger. That is forgiveness.

But deeper forgiveness is to forget that they even harmed you.

have you apologized for holding it against them?

No...

I don't want to give my parents any power over me.

I just want to let them go.

i think that would take the power away from them

it did for me

and my best friend

my life changed over night when i did it

Can you describe it, please?

i can, but I recommend just searching up jesse videos on the topic

i might mess it up or project a bit you knwo?

I watched many of his videos.

I love them.

satan doesnt want you to forgive them

you think by harboring this judgement on them that you have some kind of power over them

or something like that

I have no anger towards them. But I have something else.

i dont want to tell you what i think

what you think*

My inner child wants my parents to make peace with Jesus and be a happy family.

i thought i had none either, if you watch jesse walk people through this, almost all of them says the same thing

yes but you can't make someone else repent and accept Jesus

you can only lead by example

and by not letting them know what they did wrong, they won't be able to repent of it

repent meaning, acknowledge what you did wrong and ask God for forgiveness

I spoke to my mom about what she did wrong, she got angry on me.

and boy does he forgive

yea they wont like it LOL

they want you under their thumb

My dad became defensive...

of course