not 99% into Jesus

100%

that is faith

and by faith you are saved

you're putting faith in satan

True

by believing the lie

True

that your parents are going to get mad or hurt you or hurt themselves

that forgiveness is a bad thing

satan wants you to believe that forgiveness is bad

he still has his grip on you

you kno right before i did it, i could hear the thoughts man, non stop fear doubts telling me to do ANYTHING else

dont do it now, reconsider, you need to think about this more, etc, etc

and when i did it they didnt like it, and satan wanted me to back down and be like nvm im wrong

I want to throw my parents out of my heart and be completely free. As if they did me no wrong.

Is it okay to want this?

its so clear now

yeah that sounds about right

tell them to their face

theres two parts of it you know, acknowledge their wrongs, and let it go because they didnt know any better

and they might take it the wrong way, mine did

they didnt like it but our relationship now is better than ever

its so much more honest, and those conversations and fights of the past dont have any bearing in my life anymore

if you're scared to stand up to momma, how are you going to stand up to your wife?

My mother tries to control me and so does my dad.

if you're scared of momma how can you preach to people who remind you of her

i know

mine did too

I don't think that my relationship with my parents can ever be healed.

I just wish to see them as complete strangers.

just have no judgement about them, or anyone tbh

the conversation is to update them on that

love everyone, but not that emotional love

that calm, clean mirror reflection love

I see. You know, I saw a beggar that looked exactly like my mom and I surprised myself hating her.

be willing to tell them the truth

yea

i believe it

i always said iw ouldnt be like my dad

and i dated a bunch of girls mostly for the sex