if you're scared of momma how can you preach to people who remind you of her

i know

mine did too

I don't think that my relationship with my parents can ever be healed.

I just wish to see them as complete strangers.

just have no judgement about them, or anyone tbh

the conversation is to update them on that

love everyone, but not that emotional love

that calm, clean mirror reflection love

I see. You know, I saw a beggar that looked exactly like my mom and I surprised myself hating her.

be willing to tell them the truth

yea

i believe it

i always said iw ouldnt be like my dad

and i dated a bunch of girls mostly for the sex

and my dad is obsessed with talking about sex

and i got angry at all of them at some point which ended the relationships

and my dad was always angry

and i saw myself becoming him

despite my conscious effort to never be that way. Forgive your parents so God can forgive you

That is so true.

He will reward you for it - He will take that all away

no matter how hard i tried I couldnt do what i wanted through my own will

i forced myself to stop dating just because i saw that pattern repeating

dating a girl for sex and then getting angry over and over

i felt like i was hurting them, and i was

and i thought about them the same way i thought about my mom

oh she's so good, ill just listen to her, and make her feel good

but letting a woman lead you is like putting a baby in the driver's seat

dont get me wrong, women are great for a lot of things, but not leadership

Ye because they are emotional.

Will think about this. Tho it makes me sad that I have to visit my parents again, I might give it a try.

it's totally worth it

it's the last time you will feel fear again

and it is very likely going to be very scary leading up to it

I tell them that I forgive them for x and y and z and all they done, right?

think about it, but dont think too much

And then I go away.

i think forgive them in your heart first

so before you go there

1. acknowledge the wrongs, whatever you can think of, and 2. understand how if they knew better they would have done better