seems to me all you have to do is confess your secrets instead of try to hide them

confess them to God I mean

ok

after all, he can see them anyways

maybe ur right

kinda makes sense mabye

then you won't have fear over your secrets

ya

like i dunno why i feared it so much

it was more of

seeing my true self

more than seeing any one secregt

i didnt want them to see then show me

my true self

behind all that i built

well it makes sense, this is true of most people

like with time

we build upon stuff

to make who we are

yea

the feeling is total vulnnerabiility

like nothing u can do

thast why i thought i would die lol

i thought they are coming for me

yea, people often don't want to face their secrets, hence burying them deep down and if they risk being revealed causes them fear or anxiety

but God sees everything, and acknowledging them at the least to God is good

i think by acknnoledging them to god

u are also ackonledginig to urrself

which is jsudt as important

yea that's a good way to look at it

i do belive i guess at my basic core

somewhat

but my other part of my mind

doesnt want to belivie

the child in me belives

but the adult maybe

doesnt

hmmm

i wonder not to be JLP cliche, but what your mom is like, wonder if it's mom put a false identity in you, one full of secrets and avoidance, and so you are trying to break that to realize who you really are?

but maybe i just been watching too much JLP Show lately lol

well