yea that's a good way to look at it

i do belive i guess at my basic core

somewhat

but my other part of my mind

doesnt want to belivie

the child in me belives

but the adult maybe

doesnt

hmmm

i wonder not to be JLP cliche, but what your mom is like, wonder if it's mom put a false identity in you, one full of secrets and avoidance, and so you are trying to break that to realize who you really are?

but maybe i just been watching too much JLP Show lately lol

well

tbh

i grew up in not very good conditions

and i built up alot of anger inside

more than u can imagine

i almost went insane

i had to do speecches in class in uni

and i cried in front of the class

cuz i felt people can see past my barrier

i guess its simlar

i felt naked

yea that makes sense

and couldnt stop crying

i had to face

a part of me

i have alot of pent up anger

that is a part of me now

sadly

Wow..

you also had to realize that nothing is hidden in the dark that the light will not find

ya

i have some issues i guess

that's actualyl a lot more common than you might think

i'd even venture to say that most people are that way today

ok

like when i talk

sometimes i hear my fathers vooice

and i hate it

Dang.

How old are you?