That my mom was gonna flip me off and call me a piece of s--t

demons love when you come up with a physical or psychological explanation for them, buries their suggestions in the subconscious where your conscious mind doesn’t consider them

I was traumatized I didn't know what any of it meant but it was so viciously presented to me

The very thought of me being tortured by supernatural beings is absurd

That's the only spiritual encounter I think I have seen happened

Especially considering much of it stopped when I became atheist

Seemingly coincidentally

I might have seen spirits at some point by I usually shake it off and blame my vision

of course they’d say that, they hate us. even when they’re being generous, its just a monkey’s paw to set you up for a fall

i see them move in the corner of my eye sometimes

I've seen God's work pay off for me

Once I woke up in the middle of the night with what I can only explain was a seizure

Find no reason to leave

Idk why but I felt the urge to wake up and walk downstairs

a few years ago it would have driven me insane, now that i know what they are, and that they have to play by rules, i can accept them as part of reality and it doesn’t scare me. its the unknown that causes fear

ER made me realize I was protected

My dad kept telling me to go back to sleep but the amount of pain made it unbearable to anything

Religion was driving me insane

It made me want to end my life

I felt watched and judged

I felt as though I had no privacy

I saw God to be more like Big Brother from 1984

Kind of crazy the amount of pain one goes through can make someone want to end their own life

God forgives

you are being watched and judged, and not just by spiritual beings. privacy is a lie to get your guard down. accept that you are on a stage and realize that it brings stability and closure to what you thought was a random and unpredictable world

Well

This convo is making me depressed

Life is depressing

S--t happens

i can’t even go outside without nature constantly reminding me that theres more than meets the eye. its reassuring to me, because the thought of some random, pointless death is what causes true fear. knowing you’re being watched makes you feel like a protagonist rather than an NPC

It seems a lot less s--t happened just a couple years ago

The fact that there is no afterlife gives me closure

No afterlife sounds depressing

without judgement then evil would win without consequence. i couldn’t bear knowing that everyone who fought for truth and good died for nothing and that evil would never see justice, what a horrifying thought

Evil does win

Evil is everywhere

It wins some and loses some

There's a reason why nice guys finish last

As conspiracy theorists you guys should be well aware of that

*Ignores WW1 AND WW2*