drank heavy for 4 years, like a liter of vodka a day. Quit cold turkey when it wasn't fun anymore, just lost interest and had no desire for more.

smokes for 3 years, used chantex, was hard but doable.

my parents were heavy drunks and that's kept me off the sauce thankfully

ran in both sides of my family

only real goal i have is to be better than those who raised me and drinking would fuck that up

apathy is a real bitch tho

"Solitude is a hard won ally"

I'm at the casino

i really wish i didn't just google that...

damnit henry...

I gotta find the good Penny slots

I know that video feel

K here we go

sheit

thank you for introducing me to that video @Vicious .

I hate it now but i needed it, and i needed it years ago too.

you need the NIN version

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=epRB03P1vvE

HENRY ROOLIN

text effects are cringe, but song just amplifies it.

is there anything for us at the end of all of this?

any point to it?

i hope to reach the singularity, digitalize and live a REAL life from there

otherwise, i just want to enjoy myself and watch it all burn

that's exactly what my therapist said, word for word.

im digitalize your mom

"nooooo anon this is your life, you only have one, go live it!"

i lived it up to 27, then died

what

eh being romantic, sorry

I'm on Lexapro for 5 weeks now and it hasn't been too bad, ssris might help you, you never know until you try it

sex

I try to keep lying to myself about it but i know im full of shit

Just focus on taking it day by day

dude

"all the nights you wrapped your arms around yourself, pretending someone was holding you"

go to altitude

This is such bullshit i have to wear a mask in Louisiana

Don't worry about tomorrow, just think about today

and jump