2016

i started in 2016 too but gave it up cold turkey about a month after i started. haven't had cravings since but it does make life actually enjoyable

>when weed is the only thing that you look forward to and brings you happiness

I've been craving it more lately since I've been feeling more flat

vidya and jerking off don't give me serotonin anymore and I would have gotten my weed card by now if I didn't plan on joining the military

I got prescribed an ssri since I've been trying to stay dependence free after I quit drinking, almost 160 days in so I had to try something

I have been hooked to opiates in the past and ever since I quit drinking I've been craving them more than I have in years

My best friend has been using SSRIs for a while now and recommended I take them but meh

drank heavy for 4 years, like a liter of vodka a day. Quit cold turkey when it wasn't fun anymore, just lost interest and had no desire for more.

smokes for 3 years, used chantex, was hard but doable.

my parents were heavy drunks and that's kept me off the sauce thankfully

ran in both sides of my family

only real goal i have is to be better than those who raised me and drinking would fuck that up

apathy is a real bitch tho

"Solitude is a hard won ally"

I'm at the casino

i really wish i didn't just google that...

damnit henry...

I gotta find the good Penny slots

I know that video feel

K here we go

sheit

thank you for introducing me to that video @Vicious .

I hate it now but i needed it, and i needed it years ago too.

you need the NIN version

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=epRB03P1vvE

HENRY ROOLIN

text effects are cringe, but song just amplifies it.

is there anything for us at the end of all of this?

any point to it?

i hope to reach the singularity, digitalize and live a REAL life from there

otherwise, i just want to enjoy myself and watch it all burn

that's exactly what my therapist said, word for word.

im digitalize your mom

"nooooo anon this is your life, you only have one, go live it!"

i lived it up to 27, then died

what

eh being romantic, sorry

I'm on Lexapro for 5 weeks now and it hasn't been too bad, ssris might help you, you never know until you try it

sex