Oh ok I have a cousin that's autistic

Two actually

Thing is, when you talk to me

It's less obvious

like IRL

I act normal

Autistic people aren't stupid at all

Simply by repeating shit.

the first 5 years of my life

I repeated what everyone said

in a similar fashion to the terminator

To "learn to talk"

That's a good strategy tbh

I use words i dont even know meaning of, and correctly

It's weird

I've always felt like... not human

I've felt like an animal, a cyborg, an alien ect.

Well what is human

I never felt human

I don't think that puts you in a special situation man

I dont know

Everyone has an identity crisis

I never was happy

Yea I mean neither are all poets ever

I just got kicked out of a support group for going on about how they were all bugmen telling me to seek all professional help.

I did they pushed religion onto me

Telling me to convert.

Tired of it

I hate existing

This world doesnt... feel right.

I'm not religious but tbh I think just being in a religious community or being apart of a church could help people socialize

Nah didnt help me

They told me I was going to hell for masturbating.

Well women arent gonna givee me what I want

I dont even like women 9/10 times anyway.

I only ever am attracted if they're cosplaying someone who isnt from here

and I also get really odded out when women moan my name.

Would you say you're sexually frustrated with women?

More like... I dont like shit here.e

Like... to be frank

I've been attracted to fictional chars.