Message from @fallot

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2017-04-13 19:00:28 UTC  

No Balls = normal person

2017-04-13 19:00:40 UTC  

Borderline = Full Balls female

2017-04-13 19:00:55 UTC  

you're a half balls

2017-04-13 19:01:13 UTC  

the only saveable category (I think)(

2017-04-13 19:01:26 UTC  

basically, you are a narcissist, so yes you will appear to be borderline as well

2017-04-13 19:01:28 UTC  

as it's the same thing

2017-04-13 19:01:50 UTC  

what is called "Narcissistic Personality Disorder"

2017-04-13 19:01:51 UTC  

any interest in my evidence?

2017-04-13 19:01:56 UTC  

or "Malignant Narcissism" is Full Balls

2017-04-13 19:01:58 UTC  

yeah

2017-04-13 19:02:03 UTC  

of course

2017-04-13 19:02:17 UTC  

so I had to drive into the city to take an exam

2017-04-13 19:03:21 UTC  

I habitually wear mostly dark monochrome colors, but I noticed a lot of younger adults were smartly dressed in dark monochrome color schemes, and I immediately became disgusted with them and wanted to wear nothing but bold earth tones and flashy tropical colors

2017-04-13 19:03:37 UTC  

it wasn't so much a desire to "stick it to them," but in that moment that was my genuine desire

2017-04-13 19:04:10 UTC  

I am slowly over years coming to realize that a lot of things I do are like that, I am extremely fickle

2017-04-13 19:04:30 UTC  

I worry that I have no real identity other than a desire to be dramatically unlike others out of feelings of resentment

2017-04-13 19:04:31 UTC  

yeah

2017-04-13 19:04:39 UTC  

but the end result is "unstable personal identity," a hallmark of the personality type

2017-04-13 19:05:06 UTC  

you could reasonably apply that label to yourself

2017-04-13 19:05:14 UTC  

I realized also that I absolutely do the "splitting" thing, where a person/group/thing is put on a pedestal and then one day completely despised

2017-04-13 19:05:23 UTC  

you do, you also have supply

2017-04-13 19:05:46 UTC  

I do it quite often, but as that si a painful experience I noticed that I am extremely bitter and hateful largely because I try to just get it out of the way

2017-04-13 19:06:05 UTC  

i.e. find out from day one why I will eventually hate someone/something, and just hate from the beginning to avoid disappointment

2017-04-13 19:06:09 UTC  

you could say I "preemptively split"

2017-04-13 19:06:38 UTC  

makes sense

2017-04-13 19:06:43 UTC  

and this more recent thing

2017-04-13 19:07:08 UTC  

the whole thing about borderline personality disorder is a deep seated feeling of emptiness, so they do more extreme things to seek stimulation

2017-04-13 19:07:23 UTC  

same for NPD

2017-04-13 19:07:44 UTC  

the idea is BPD types are after approval

2017-04-13 19:07:47 UTC  

I noticed that over the years my interests, my humor, my expressions of love and hate, all become more extreme and quite honestly it is because I stop getting any kind of rush out of whatever I was doing before

2017-04-13 19:08:00 UTC  

true, although that is an optional criterion under DSMV

2017-04-13 19:08:08 UTC  

you have to appreciate

2017-04-13 19:08:10 UTC  

I reject these labels

2017-04-13 19:08:15 UTC  

I believe they are wrong

2017-04-13 19:08:18 UTC  

well yes, just like I feel about MBTI

2017-04-13 19:08:28 UTC  

and for the same reasons

2017-04-13 19:08:34 UTC  

you can find insight via the label BPD

2017-04-13 19:08:47 UTC  

but some of the people labelled BPD will be sociopaths

2017-04-13 19:08:55 UTC  

the male BPD is pretty much a unicorn

2017-04-13 19:09:05 UTC  

that's one of the biggest reasons I think it's a bullshit category

2017-04-13 19:09:05 UTC  

but here's an example - I had to drive into the city to take a big test which basically determines my future