Message from @Deleted User 57835c2c
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what is called "Narcissistic Personality Disorder"
any interest in my evidence?
or "Malignant Narcissism" is Full Balls
yeah
of course
so I had to drive into the city to take an exam
I habitually wear mostly dark monochrome colors, but I noticed a lot of younger adults were smartly dressed in dark monochrome color schemes, and I immediately became disgusted with them and wanted to wear nothing but bold earth tones and flashy tropical colors
it wasn't so much a desire to "stick it to them," but in that moment that was my genuine desire
I am slowly over years coming to realize that a lot of things I do are like that, I am extremely fickle
I worry that I have no real identity other than a desire to be dramatically unlike others out of feelings of resentment
yeah
but the end result is "unstable personal identity," a hallmark of the personality type
you could reasonably apply that label to yourself
I realized also that I absolutely do the "splitting" thing, where a person/group/thing is put on a pedestal and then one day completely despised
you do, you also have supply
I do it quite often, but as that si a painful experience I noticed that I am extremely bitter and hateful largely because I try to just get it out of the way
i.e. find out from day one why I will eventually hate someone/something, and just hate from the beginning to avoid disappointment
you could say I "preemptively split"
makes sense
and this more recent thing
the whole thing about borderline personality disorder is a deep seated feeling of emptiness, so they do more extreme things to seek stimulation
same for NPD
the idea is BPD types are after approval
I noticed that over the years my interests, my humor, my expressions of love and hate, all become more extreme and quite honestly it is because I stop getting any kind of rush out of whatever I was doing before
true, although that is an optional criterion under DSMV
you have to appreciate
I reject these labels
I believe they are wrong
well yes, just like I feel about MBTI
and for the same reasons
you can find insight via the label BPD
but some of the people labelled BPD will be sociopaths
the male BPD is pretty much a unicorn
that's one of the biggest reasons I think it's a bullshit category
but here's an example - I had to drive into the city to take a big test which basically determines my future
it's basically the same problem, with sex differences
men and women have different psychologies
and before the exam started I was so bored I found a secluded area and started climbing shit and doing parkour, and actually cut my hand because of it
that may just be an aspect of your true self
but I think that does a great job reflecting it - even in the face of what should have been an overstimulating level of stress for a normal person, I was bored to the point I sought physically risky behavior
exaggerated due to your personality issue