Like I said, med tech cert

@Aeryn I'm CPR and first responder certified.

I used to be, would have to be recert

But, most of my time is shitposting and being stuck in my own head with the Voices.

Just because I have a mental illness doesn't mean that I can't control myself.

>voices

>claims to be in control

that's probably a load

that's definite leg pulling

@Aeryn I'm in control enough that I've never had a violent outburst against someone else.

But, you can believe me or not.

They call hearing voices schizophrenia, or being a mystic depending on if you're a fedora or not.

@Deleted User 57835c2c Nope. Not leg pulling.

tell me more about these voices you hear

Alabama is haunted as fuck. You'll find something to believe in down here, even if it's just that the Devil is out to get you.

@Deleted User 57835c2c They scream, constantly.

But I don't think you really want to know. You're just fishing for a gotcha.

one voice? several? male? female? both? familiar or strange?

@Deleted User 57835c2c Yes.

Some male, some female. A few are familiar, one has a name--but I created her as a counterbalance.

I used to experience auditory hallucinations. It wasn't screams, but whispers. And a lot of static-y white noise

do the voices come from "inside" or "outside?"

A constant cacophony of misery. Screaming at me about my every mistake that I've ever made. They're inside for the most part, when things get really intense, it moves around.

"moves around"?

@Aeryn It can be screams, whispers, over-riding what people say IRL.

Goes from inside to outside my head.

what do they tell you? everything you've done wrong, you just said, but what else?

or I guess go on in general about what sorts of things they say

@Deleted User 57835c2c "KILL YOURSELF KILL EVERYONE THE WORLD IS SHIT NOTHING CAN EVER GO RIGHT YOU'RE WORTHLESS [insert flashback memory here]" In a constant loop.

interesting

The others talk about specific people in my life.

WHAT ARE THEY?

what do you think the voices are?

@MentalSyntaxError Misery

@Deleted User 57835c2c Misery.

The universe itself screaming back at me. Sometimes.

It's just Eternal Misery. Part of the curse that surrounds me, that's always surrounded me.

well yes, but what do you think the voices like... /are/? I mean I have a lot of misery, but my misery doesn't talk to me.

@Deleted User 57835c2c Well, they're either poltergeists from my own emotions that have always been whacked out.

Or, they're malevolent spirits.

Either way, it still shows me that I'm worthless, a failure and that life should have never existed.