I am neither Jew nor Marxist, I am a nordic nazi and I have to keep being a nazi a secret for the good of my career

Oh, congrats on your progress so far Exilarch

But, since I'm a coward.

@Deleted User 57835c2c Sorry, but I don't care.

there are medications for hallucination that are very effective, and they get better and cheaper every year

I don't trust anyone as it is. Shrinks much less.

@Deleted User 57835c2c Not good enough. Not cheap enough.

I'd rather just it all be over for a bit.

I remember one of the medications I was prescribed didn't have a generic, and without insurance the cost was $1,500

That's about how it is here.

We don't have assistance. We don't have options.

The South doesn't believe in mental illness, you should know that

And the treatments don't really work. It wouldn't take away the existential dread from the current problems even if it fixed the voices in my head.

the sort of medication that might help you can cost as little as $4 a month at walmart

@Aeryn Oh, we do.

It's just that we know that there is only one treatment for it. Isolate the infected before it spreads. Liberalism proves that Mental Illness is contagious.

@Deleted User 57835c2c Except I have no insurance, there are no sliding scale doctors who will see me. And every last one is a Marxist who hates white men.

that last point... sadly you're right

psych is pozzed as hell

all medicine is actually

Down with cis white male scum, amirite?

@Deleted User 57835c2c And that's why there's no point in treating it.

Suicide would just work out better.

At least, for me.

Don't an hero

@Aeryn Why not?

Jewgene tells me to kill myself all the time, don't you Jewgene? @MentalSyntaxError

Honestly that's up to you, but I'm just saying there are things you haven't tried that might work

You only want to cause harm and tear others down, so why not?

they might be cheap and effective

@Deleted User 57835c2c Maybe. But I can't trust it enough to take the risk.

why would trying a pill be less trustworthy than killing yourself

Eh. Do what you want, I guess. Man, if assisted suicide was widely legal for personal reason rather than only in the case of terminal illness, we'd lose a large chunk of the population

@MentalSyntaxError Well, what else is there, Jewgene? It's not like there's any way to make it out of this without it all going to hell, is there?

@Aeryn Losing a large chunk of the population isn't a bad thing exactly. Only when you're outnumbered by minorities is it a problem.

Minorities have it made, we'll be overrun at that point

@Aeryn And don't worry. My chickenshit complex keeps me tied down quite nicely. Cowardice is also a permanent condition.

@Aeryn I know.

you opened up about this to me even though we are strangers. Part of me thinks that's because you want someone to listen and help

That's why even if I had meds and a shrink, I'd still hate life and want to die.

so again, it's totally up to you, but I think there is an avenue you haven't explored