no, it's because he treats me like a piece of shit because I dye my hair black

You aren't sad that a friend stopped being a friend.

yes I am

it took me years to get him to trust and chat

You're sad an ally stopped being sufficiently alighned with you.

Your army shrank.

Which is why you now allow vigilance.

is that how you see it?

Yes.

And unlike you, I don't lie.

vigilance and I found out we actually have a ton in common that we didn't notice before

your theory doesn't explain how vig went from antagonistic towards me to suddenly a bro

He likes most people.

if I just suddenly changed my mind, why'd he suddenly change his?

he hated me and talked shit

He was just annoyed at your FUCK YOU DALIT EAT LENTILS schtick

Even when you were doing that, he was willing to hang out with you.

it was you who didnt want him.

"containment chat" etc

yeah and what you don't understand is that my reason for even trying brahminism were 50% curiosity and experiment, but 50% to try to get closer to yarfy

what is this server

he might hang out with the most insufferable retards, and might be completely vicious and triggering, but he's really smart and I wanted to get to know him better for years and maybe have him as a friend

did someone just say dalit

so when he started teaching all this business I got on board with it, it seemed to have some benefits, and I was finally able to maintain pseudo-friendship with the guy for a bit

and although there were some weird times and I was always walking on eggshells to prevent him from snapping over some micro detail, calling me a piece of shit and rejecting me, they were actually some really good and interesting times too

I really enjoyed it all and I was sad when he decided that hair dye made me a POC anyway

but he is the sort of person who is completely unable to understand that sort of sentiment, I know because I tried to get through to him for a long time

wild it literally was that simple, I enjoyed being his friend

it's not some fucking soap opera plot, it's just that

@Claire MERRY CHRISTMAS! LOVE YOU MOM.

in fact I wish I could go back to being his friend again, but he's so eager to kick people to the curb and become aggressive towards them that he's pretty much the least loyal friend possible, so I'm not going to even attempt it

all your bullshit about me being some schemer is entirely in your own head

YOU'RE REFERRING TO @༺པརབྱར།བསངཇ༻ @Exilarch? WHAT IS GOING ON?

in fact it's really ironic, because even though I definitely have that ability (Mother can attest), my #1 thing I even want out of life is to have a life where I do not need to do any of that at all

I'm telling Wild about the motives behind my friendship with yarfy

You say that, yet you sit in servers for hours and do it out of enjoyment.

do what, scheme? what do I scheme

Then go back to private safespace chat and tell your pals "look at what i got them to beleive LOL"

see the worst thing about this "you're a schemer" business is it's like "you're a racist," there's nothing I can really do to clear that allegation

so? this is out in the jungle, that is home

hostile people exist here, not there