All consuming.

reading pastebin

What do you think I've been doing this entire time?

"since our old man is the worst of all people."

throw him the cheap gun and say "draw" then point a bb gun at him

@☯Ultra Supreme Elder Lord☯ Doesn't work that way.

Old Man isn't around anymore.

And of course. Cowardice.

You are the master of your fate, the Captain of your soul

@Captain Lauri Törni No, I'm not.

You do what you believe is right

@Captain Lauri Törni What I believe is right is that all life should die.

Do you get it yet?

Yes you are how can not be

There is no mastering fate. There is no captaining soul.

There is only Eternal Misery.

There is only punishment.

There is only the Voices.

Do you get it yet?

No talking ever helps. It all just makes me hate myself worse.

@Captain Lauri Törni Do. You. Get. It. Yet?

Yes

How I can not be is because the Voices rule all.

They see all. They hear all. They know all. They know what I think before I think it.

Then they scream, then the curse starts. Then the flashbacks start.

Then things get worse.

Then I fail again.

And the process repeats.

Suicide is my only option.

And I can't even take that because I'm too cowardly to kill myself.

so you got blamed for a kid's foot being cut off and you got ptsd

did they reattach his foot or does he have one of those spring things and run marathons now?

I'd say forget about it let it go it wasn't your fault

@☯Ultra Supreme Elder Lord☯ He only got one toe cut off and the rest was mangled.

You didn't really read it, did you?

@Captain Lauri Törni I can't.

The Voices won't let me.

I can't forget about it. If I try to forget about it, it gets worse.

I get punished.

@☯Ultra Supreme Elder Lord☯ The kid was my younger brother.

**You REALLY didn't read it, did you?!**

I read the little summary and then got back tot he pastebin