hence why I am here

https://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/options-for-meeting-online

the self deprecation is real right now

You're more likely to get tough love than hugs and a cry sesh is here though

For if you need it

Oh I'm well aware. The truth of the matter is simply that I need to be a man and deal with my issues than complain and burden people on the internet with it.

Fuck that

I mean I still drink too much but I do it on my terms, I still have that alchy step of “looking forward to when I drink” but it’s only stressful if I’m bored ya know

@Bard you smoke weed right?

Fuck that 'be a man' bullshit. If you need to talk and vent then you need to

I mean “be a man” but men get help from their fellow men

And men help men

Truth

@Bard you know we're here for you. It's not easy and there will be up and downs but we are here.

I used to smoke weed, until it became either too psychadelic and paranoid for me or became boring and a bad habit.

I haven't smoked it in over 2 years

But not the 'be a man and shove it deep inside till it dissappears' bullshit

Yeah, I mean I was bawling the better part of the day so far.
But it goes to say you know what you gotta do. Some of us will be softer, others harder. But we still got you

@Bard maybe give it a try again?

I've been thinking about it

@Bard you got this shit if you need to talk we are always here. You too @thedarkness05

Just a little, but it helped me with getting off dope and it’s cuts WAYYYY down on my drinking

Also it’s WAYYYYY better for your body

Oh I'm a big fan of cannabis

Idc what A.A. says about “it not being really sober”

I think it should be a regular part of American society

Don’t let it be a crutch, but there’s nothing wrong with having a cushion in these distressed times

It's like this, I'm genetically predisposed to addiction, and I was completely starved of any kind of altered state growing up

Personally not a huge fan of any of that but i agree weed has to be alot better than that monstrosity your putting your body through with the booze

As soon as I was able to get vices, I got them and held onto them in a big way

@Bard same, both my parents were cops growing up lol

The only one I didn't hold onto was pot, and I would do more psilocybin but I don't have access to it

@Bard I mean same. But I've kept myself in check with most things

I’ve had to train myself that Just because I have 2 drinks I don’t need 6

And I still fuck that up when I’m out on the town

@Bard recognizing what substances do not bode well is really important. Your awareness shows that you have the mindset to change.

A lot of times we are not addicted to booze as much as we are addicted “to the shindig” as RHCP says

I go to friend's houses right and their mom or dad is there and is like "Want a beer?", that may be normal to many of you but to me it is so alien it defies belief

something something the forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest

^yeah I get that

Same