https://www.behance.net/bahbahbahbah

i draw military stuff or mechs

usually

I'm not gonna say that Inhave no feelings or that I'm a statue, Because that's bullshit.... I just have a hard time expressing myself...... I am extremely shy irl.... And chatting on here is the ONLY place where I can be myself... And.... Yeah..... I'm pretty outgoing online and super cheerful..... I just find it exceedingly difficult to express this irl.....

So far, before the Quarantine bullshit, I actually asked a woman out, i was rejected both times because apparently "I'm a creep" I don't oggle or stare at chicks, but I do stare into plank space and I have a hard time keeping eye contact and looking at people directly....

I always look at rhe corners of the room or zone out at random times and end up with a blank face....... Apparently people don't like that......

I have no friends irl, well, technically..... Lol..... I met uo with Rocktopus before he disappeared from Disco and he was cool as fuck. But I only visited him the one time due to the sheer distance

why so many dots though

Amd aside from him. I find it hard to meet people.... I find it hard to talk to anyone aaide from the usual " Nice hair/noice shirt chief"

@bah Sorry. Typing habit. Lol. I used to do a lot of online text-based role-playing. Freeform type stuff where we write the entire settings and make uo characters for whatever.

If you want.... I can type up a "sample" but my writing is garbage now since I haven't done it in a few years. We did rp fights and stuff. It was weirdo shit.

i mean its not something you should apologize for

just weird

It's similar to dnd but without dice and without dm, completely chaotic and random

I actually miss it sometimes. But. I can't go back.

I've done the rp thing for literal years. And the characters i made stuck with me. I guess. Lol

Sup losers trap is mad about this church shit.

@насильственное убийство I know the thing man you can tell people see you weirdly but haven't figured it out yourself. It's time you realise your weirdness is most likely your shyness. Say hello to people when you see them, try and be friendly even if you're not used to it.

Not easy to be weird. That was me for a while but I started the path of normal human a while back and it's been a journey of self improvement

Working out is a great start. Start testing your body and improving it. You'll start to feel more control over your life and the discipline it takes to keep at it really is good for your spirits.

That really fixed me. Now the time when I zone out the most is when I'm lifting and it happens less in everyday life. I get my time to tunnel vision and everyone else sees a more regular guy. Once you've started getting stronger focus on getting to know people around you. The only thing more awkward than asking a colleague basic questions years into knowing them is never even trying.

Do they have family? Pets? Have they been on a holiday recently? People love it when other people take interest in them. The first few times you do this you'll find yourself overwhelmed by the urge to talk over someone which may ruin a friendship. It's shit but it happens and hopefully you'll see them sometime later and they'll see you've improved.

As you start getting to know a few people it's important to remember to be laid-back. I went from having a group of weird incelites and simps to multiple friend groups including the incelites and simps (fun guys don't get me wrong). Learning how to converse in a better way isn't easy but it's good when you do it. Try tame humour and get a little riskier as you go so you know what people are comfortable with. Make jokes. Let other people speak. And maybe one day you'll be somewhere with a group of people, and perhaps you're not the centre of attention, but you'll suddenly realise that life just became enjoyable.

Developing skills is another great thing. Team sport is one of the best things you can do. Look for any kind of local club that does anything. Maybe you're not into soccer but you know what I play it to be with people and I ended up becoming fairly good as a side effect.

I uhh.... I'm gonna practice

Good on you mate.

ngl i kinda do be hatin women doe

@bah I always have... 28 years ild bro, I got two years left until I'm a wizard

I have had my share of whores and sluts
Met only two worth anything

@насильственное убийство lemme know which school of magic you learn

@thedarkness05 it's a joke bro, lol something, something being a virgin at 30 years old

@насильственное убийство I know lmao, just having fun with it

@thedarkness05 Oh. Well in that case.

BEGONE, THOT! I SHALL DEFEND MY OWN VIRGINITY FROM THINE WHORES!

There we go. I heard evocation is the way to go though

tough night

Whats going on king? Still in the same funk from last night?

I tried calling my parents last night earlier on and nobody picked up the phone, so instead I got drunk

too drunk and now I'm depressed as shit

I mean bad coping strat king, I know you're trying to cut back on the sauce. These are trying times indeed, but you aint alone in this fight