Message from @Amadeus
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pull me away
Oh in my case they don't even touch me. When I get on full rage I tend to get mindless. Bad hearing/forgetting things when I calm off etc
i had had rage outbursts here and there in front of people, but that was probably the only time i truly lost control
Damn
he said something that set me off and i did go into one of those seeing-only red sorta modes
i do not remember everything about it, i just know i had him by his shirt collar pinned against lockers
I hold in a lot of anger and stuff. Then it eventually boils over and I just explode. Never anything physically threatening, just mindless rage of insults meant to destroy the person they’re directed.
i feel rage where i truly want to just go around breaking stuff, but i have the restraint not to do so
though i have on occasion beat the hell out of my desk and keyboard, surprised it still works
but i know my keyboard is junk and i have a spare
Tbh I haven't got to a point to harm a person in my rage yet, but I don't know if something happens and fucks me really bad what would happen
so that's why i do it
well as i said, i was in a very dark and bad place when it happened
because I'm too chill as a human overall I just get too angry tbh when things irritate me
I’ve only been physically angry at like 2 people. It was in middle school and they were being a bully. I was almost A Christmas Story level on them.
i was suicidal at the time, and a complete emotional mess
i would vomit every day before class began
because my emotions would churn my stomach too much
That was 6th grade for me. Puked every morning.
that's my favorite christmas movie
That was because I was being bullied by some dude that failed 6th grade at least twice.
So I was really nervous and anxious about going to school.
that sucks
i know how that feels, though not from bullying
my kindergarten teacher was very mean to me
she essentially treated me like i was retarded or something
Most of my K-12 teachers were really nice.
and on the first day i brought my lunch ever (which was on grandparents' day), i forgot it
In 5th grade I had break a head open, the kid was send for stitches, after that I never fought seriously because in fights I tend to do everything just to not hurt myself
and when i asked her if i could go get it
she legitimately cornered me
and
began to scream at me
in front of everyone's grandparents
including my mine
*my own
Wow
i would chew holes in the collars of my shirts out of pure nervousness
i was taken out probably about half way through the year and went back to preschool until my parents could work out where i would go next