Damn

he said something that set me off and i did go into one of those seeing-only red sorta modes

i do not remember everything about it, i just know i had him by his shirt collar pinned against lockers

I hold in a lot of anger and stuff. Then it eventually boils over and I just explode. Never anything physically threatening, just mindless rage of insults meant to destroy the person they’re directed.

i feel rage where i truly want to just go around breaking stuff, but i have the restraint not to do so

though i have on occasion beat the hell out of my desk and keyboard, surprised it still works

but i know my keyboard is junk and i have a spare

Tbh I haven't got to a point to harm a person in my rage yet, but I don't know if something happens and fucks me really bad what would happen

so that's why i do it

well as i said, i was in a very dark and bad place when it happened

because I'm too chill as a human overall I just get too angry tbh when things irritate me

I’ve only been physically angry at like 2 people. It was in middle school and they were being a bully. I was almost A Christmas Story level on them.

i was suicidal at the time, and a complete emotional mess

i would vomit every day before class began

because my emotions would churn my stomach too much

That was 6th grade for me. Puked every morning.

that's my favorite christmas movie

i have a leg lamp (though not full size)

That was because I was being bullied by some dude that failed 6th grade at least twice.

So I was really nervous and anxious about going to school.

that sucks

i know how that feels, though not from bullying

my kindergarten teacher was very mean to me

she essentially treated me like i was retarded or something

Most of my K-12 teachers were really nice.

and on the first day i brought my lunch ever (which was on grandparents' day), i forgot it

In 5th grade I had break a head open, the kid was send for stitches, after that I never fought seriously because in fights I tend to do everything just to not hurt myself

and when i asked her if i could go get it

she legitimately cornered me

and

https://www.facebook.com/ryanne.mcchadchasonleii.3/videos/113710093184696/UzpfSTE2MzY0NDY1MzM6MTAyMTY2MzQ1MTIyMDg2ODM/

began to scream at me

in front of everyone's grandparents

including my mine

*my own

Wow

i would chew holes in the collars of my shirts out of pure nervousness

i was taken out probably about half way through the year and went back to preschool until my parents could work out where i would go next

@fsmetal that video 🤣

that's a good video lol

That’s crazy dude.