How's it going gang, i'm new

Not new in life, just new in the server

Is this like a legit tell us your problems ir more ironic?

Nothing much lol

Vacations aint shit

I got excited then i remembered i don't have a PC

But I still have halo 2 for PC

I used to hace PC, but had to sell it

I used to love vacations, now it's just stress but without classes or work

I go to a friends house and play some csgo but he is in Australia

He is the one helping with that

So it's kind of on pause

I stll have my laptop so it's not urgent, but I can't run most games without lag

Ive been trying to do that, but i just get angry at myself lol

I can't focus and that makes me sad because i remember i was able to focus

This is kind of a long one, so I don't blame anyone that doesn't reads it all.

I am kind of a combination between a late bloomer and a total retard when it comes to social shit. I always got sad in high school because I would see classmates in relationships and there I was alone and just wanting to kinda have a gf.

I got my first gf at 21 (aug last year) and was excited because I finally got what I wanted. I was never desperate about it, but just kinda sad because I thought i was missing out. But at 21 i thought it was also great because that would mean that I was more mature and not as driven by hormones as any teen relationship would. I was also very clear that I was serious about the relationship and was not looking for anything casual which she also said was what she was looking for.

At the start it was something great, and I gave her lots of gifts (nothing big and fancy, stuff like little necklaces or makeup and that sort of thing) and i met her family and got along great.

And after february was when thing took a turn, she started to give short answers yo mesagges and things like that, and removed that thing that shows "last online". Going out with her felt like she was trying to be there but wanted not to. And after a while, i insisted to talk in person but she didn't want to, and so we where having serious talks on messenger because "if it's important doesn't matter if it's texting" and i just felt wrong with that stuff.

The thing that made me sort of realize what was going on when she said (in a text) that "if i still had depression even though i was dating her then it's not worth doing so". And the thing is i always told her that I had that problem, and that i had it way before knowing her. We also never had sex because i have body issues and find myself disgusting, even after she asked several times to do it. Just once i felt kind of in the mood and she denied it.

The breakup lasted three days because she "misunderstood" what I had said and thought i was angry but still wanted to be with her.

After the breakup my friends started telling me that she was very manipulative (and I didn't see it) and started telling me how and they where right. I almost every weekend went to her house to spend time with her and if i went on public transport i had to get up at 5 because i lived between 2 - 2:30 hours away, and she didn't let me go after 8pm (and the last bus to my house leaves 10pm, so if i was lucky and ran between metro stations i would barely catch the bus).

But she wouldn't go to my house. The only times she came i had to drive to her house (which costed ~80 pesos in road fees plus gas) and bring her to my house.

I also stopped going out with my friends because she wanted to do something with me, and when I hung out with them she got mad because she thought i was ignoring her on purpose, so i basically had to be at my phone even if i was out with frinds.

I also lost a friend because she liked me but didn't told me after i was with my gf.

After we broke up she told me she didn't want to talk to me again because that would be hurtful to both of us, but then she started messagimg me again anf saying that if i ever talk about her it has to be nicd thing and such.

I sort of vowed to myself to be single for at least until i had bettered myself (thing that i was planning on doig this summer but failed), but now just out of nowhere i start to realize that now i'm falling for my one of my friends.

She was really supportive of me during my relationship and gave me some advice when things started to go wrong. I fpund out i can tell her almost anything and she would understand and suport. I now realize that maybe my ex might have been jealous of her too.

She also shares some issues with me (like depression, anxiety and body image issues) and comfort each other when we can.

Every time we part ways she hugs me really hard and realize that my ex didn't do that and sometimes didn't want to hold hands when walking.

I'm just afraid of falling in love with her and ruining our friendship.

Everything that went wrong with my ex happened; my grades tanked, i went back to hate myself and worsen my depressiom, gained a fuckton of weight and now i also feel broken

I don't know what to do

Also, please forgive English lol

Tldr: my ex messed me up and now i might fall in love with a friend

We know eachother since when we started college, around three years ago

I'm not trying to make a rash desition. Quite the oposite

Yes and yes. We know eachother pretty well

We have taken courses together for almost three years

The thing is that i don't think is a good idea, because i just got out of a bad relationship

And i don't want to hurt her

That's what i mean

The thing is im a retard with words lol

But yeah

We are still planing on hanging out once she gets back from her home state

.about what

Yeah she knows

Yeah, i think i will

Yeah, i will

Thanks bruvs

We will meet on the 25 this month

We are just planning to go eat somenthing

I don't plan on telling her anything yet

But i will in the future

I don't want to overdo it, but also my last relationship left me really starved of affection. She was very cold and that and i just thought it was my fault for not being a good boyfriend

Fun factoid about me: i tried getting into military medical school but wasnt accepted because i'm asmathic

Yeah, my friends gave me a rethorical slap across the face

Yeah, i understand that, but they never said anything until it was up, with the exception of the friend aforementioned

https://youtu.be/jeqJyUbuzN4

Read the unabomber manifesto

Depending on the aproach that you take you can make your targets

For example, if you read Siege you can target government workers sistematically all the way from postmen to the president

And he gives you guides

The unabomber tried to save society from itself

And said that the industrial revolution and its consecuences are a disaster for the human race

And he is right

@Foxhound Siege is sorto of a diary entry for a neonazi that advocates for armed revolution instead of political capitulation

Mason was not entirely right, but not entirely wrong too

Politically wise

Because the us can't stay the same if a revolution happens

They would loose substantial amount of power worldwide

So if you want to take the Siege aproach you are basically making the us a madmax scenario

If you take the kazcinsky aproach you are taking a deep ecology route

And for both of them the targeting of civilians is, even if unintentional, unavoidable

People HAVE to die

So one has to have the most cristal clear view of their goals and an extremely detailed plan in order not only to succeed but to make a stable governing body. If you create a utopia it will fail

And in modern times it's more difficult to amass an armed insurgency with the power that the government possesses on everyday life, so in the case of the us, an 1776 scenario is (imo) impossible.

Could work with other countries or other objectives though, like the raiding of Epsteins island

But thats just my opinión, take it with a grain of salt

Hey guys, is it good to pass around here the 3d printable Glock frame or nah

I have the file, but i dont own a 3d printer or trust anyone yo keep the secret

Nor the means to acquire the slide/barrel

That is correct

I tried to do it in my country, i formed a nationalist movement and we got so far up to being on the news, but after some people got "exposed" we got dissolved and we are planning a "silent" approach now

I am just unsure of how safe it is to post some "interesting" manuals i have on here

Since I can't own firearms due to my country laws, i can't confirm nor deny that i may or may not have manufactured an assortment of [toys]

But if anyone is interested on said manuals and files my telegram alias is @f9hbx9HnBR

https://youtu.be/rMbjuVC7CS8

Ya-yeeting your Manly Extraordinary Astounding Tenderloin is cardio though

I enjoy more outrun or synthwave. Something about the retro feel of the song gets me hyped up, even if it's just cardio or calisthenics.

Because everything now is about the international stuff

So if you are a nationalist you are anti-everything modern

That's why in many nationalist propaganda you will see the phrase "revolt against the modern world"

Which is an interesting read by Julius evola

What's happening?

What's that?

But what's that? Is it like military service?

@Sir Harndes i understand that, but is it like military service or what is that about. Sounds serious

Oh

I remember the time when I did mine. Really fun sutff

I wanted to enlist and go to medical schools

We even had some "old" guys

Not over 40

But when camp is full of 18yos anyone older looks ancient

>be me
>double nationality
>get drafted
>at least it's not brazil.mp4
>go to war and get to see the world
>get assigned to "shit squad"
>mfw

I understand that the american army is different, but i would still do my military service again.

To me it was a fun experience

The only thing i don't miss is eating at light speed and then exercise right after

Because i went with a squad of dumb teenagers that liked guns and had nothing better yo do

The first time we got our rifles they felt heavy as shit

They gave us fals