like squeaks said

you can feel the needles going in but it's like meh

It's why whenever someone hits me, I don't feel it lmao

my pain tolerance is not very high...

altho

For me pain is normal.

it hurts more on the inside

thats the weird thing

I have a condition with my lung, from when I was a child. I had an upper right respitory disease.

Which is a SUPER cold

Turned my right lung into swiss cheese basically.

even if things dont hurt that much, if someone hits me i panic

So I've dealt with it every day lmao

im not a crybaby

but... its weird

I try to not feel.

I was taught that I personally am not allowed to ever be upset

Everyone else has it worse.

My job is too listen to someone elses problems, and carry that burden and my own. It's stupid but I can't stop.

i mean, i do get it. it doesn't hurt when my legs hit something anymore

I hear that squeaks

you have no reason to complain so dont try

@Squeaks you sound like my friend oof

I mean

wish i had a higher pain tolerance so i could epilate more areas LOL

My life is pretty shitty

But hey, everyone else matters more

I don't mind it. But at the same time, it leads to unhealthy behavior.

and legit i wanna say is, its okay if you dont wanna be ranty, but ranting in a safe space helps a lot

I don't cry, I don't get angry that often, and I'm not supposed too ever feel sorry for myself

Emotions get in the way so I throw them aside. It's why I'm blunt and pretty "rude" sometimes.

but dont feel like you should be the only person who should care about your problems

@Squeaks i barely get angry, ever

@Shattered I panic sometimes too, especially when people yell, i look stupid when it happens too. Im six feet tall and heavy and I duck and cover when anyone starts yelling

yelling is completely fine for me

I don't get angry. I get dangerous if I'm angry.

That's not even me trying to be a tough guy. I get dangerous.

I hate that part of me so I lock it up.

i usually dont care enough to get angry

yeah, you shoudnt feel sorry for yourself, it just makes you kinda entitled to things (personal experience) but its okay to know that when things go wrong, it isnt always your fault or problem

i dislike fighting