Message from @Shattered

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2019-12-29 03:31:00 UTC  

oh

2019-12-29 03:31:07 UTC  

my father used to hit me a lot, but no scars

2019-12-29 03:31:15 UTC  

same, but mom

2019-12-29 03:31:25 UTC  

never started bleeding or whatever

2019-12-29 03:31:37 UTC  

i get tattoos but it freaks out the artist usually when i dont flinch or complain

2019-12-29 03:31:43 UTC  

all these scars, put together by dumb me from being clumsy

2019-12-29 03:31:52 UTC  

wow

2019-12-29 03:32:00 UTC  

you dont feel pain?

2019-12-29 03:32:16 UTC  

My pain tolerance is pretty high.

2019-12-29 03:32:19 UTC  

You don't feel things after a while.

2019-12-29 03:32:28 UTC  

I feel it, but it was so common in my child hood that's its not uncomfortable anymore

2019-12-29 03:32:30 UTC  

Good example: You get hit. all you feel is the "thud" of impact.

2019-12-29 03:32:35 UTC  

You know you got punched, but it doesn't hurt.

2019-12-29 03:32:45 UTC  

like squeaks said

2019-12-29 03:32:56 UTC  

you can feel the needles going in but it's like meh

2019-12-29 03:32:57 UTC  

It's why whenever someone hits me, I don't feel it lmao

2019-12-29 03:32:58 UTC  

my pain tolerance is not very high...

2019-12-29 03:33:05 UTC  

altho

2019-12-29 03:33:06 UTC  

For me pain is normal.

2019-12-29 03:33:12 UTC  

it hurts more on the inside

2019-12-29 03:33:15 UTC  

thats the weird thing

2019-12-29 03:33:16 UTC  

I have a condition with my lung, from when I was a child. I had an upper right respitory disease.

2019-12-29 03:33:18 UTC  

Which is a SUPER cold

2019-12-29 03:33:24 UTC  

Turned my right lung into swiss cheese basically.

2019-12-29 03:33:28 UTC  

even if things dont hurt that much, if someone hits me i panic

2019-12-29 03:33:29 UTC  

So I've dealt with it every day lmao

2019-12-29 03:33:44 UTC  

im not a crybaby

2019-12-29 03:33:47 UTC  

but... its weird

2019-12-29 03:34:02 UTC  

I try to not feel.

2019-12-29 03:34:09 UTC  

I was taught that I personally am not allowed to ever be upset

2019-12-29 03:34:12 UTC  

Everyone else has it worse.

2019-12-29 03:34:33 UTC  

My job is too listen to someone elses problems, and carry that burden and my own. It's stupid but I can't stop.

2019-12-29 03:34:37 UTC  

i mean, i do get it. it doesn't hurt when my legs hit something anymore

2019-12-29 03:34:50 UTC  

I hear that squeaks

2019-12-29 03:34:59 UTC  

you have no reason to complain so dont try

2019-12-29 03:35:03 UTC  

@Squeaks you sound like my friend oof

2019-12-29 03:35:06 UTC  

I mean

2019-12-29 03:35:06 UTC  

wish i had a higher pain tolerance so i could epilate more areas LOL

2019-12-29 03:35:08 UTC  

My life is pretty shitty

2019-12-29 03:35:12 UTC  

But hey, everyone else matters more

2019-12-29 03:35:30 UTC  

I don't mind it. But at the same time, it leads to unhealthy behavior.