So, there's still something there

I've always lived for others, only reason I haven't hung myself yet is cause I'd hate for my mother to find me dead.

That's literally it.

Can't live for others

That's no life

It's all I've ever done

Then maybe you should work on yourself. You gotta live for yourself.

Can't make myself happy so I may as well make other happy.

Gotta agree with Runes here.

Just because it's what you've always done, doesn't mean that it's good or healthy

^

Serious advice - consider talking to a therapist

I've already set up an appointment.

It's tough to get through some of these kinds of things alone.

Good

An impartial sounding board helps

(that isn't a bunch of retards on the internet)

I'm not going to kill myself but goddammit I hate being like this

I hate being alone.

Also, don't bottle up, therapy wont do shit if you don't say what's wrong.

I'm getting my money's worth if I'm going to therapy

A lot of people like to go to therapy and not tell the therapist anything, and then wonder why it's not working

This dude is gonna be hating life by the time I'm done

Cause goddammit I've got some venting to do

They signed up for it

Another quick point about therapy - therapists are different. Just because you picked and started with one, doesn't mean that they may be right for you or your situation. Don't be afraid to try out different ones.

Fuck man, I just need a hug.

Also, the *type* of therapy may not be right

Go hug your mother.

Would if I could my dude.

Lately something's been up with me

Fuckin paternal shit is starting to kick in

The fuck old are you? Like 22?

Not having anyone to be with has been getting me way more bummed than usual

Yeah

It's not even a libido thing either

It's a >tfw no family of my own sort of thing

Bruh trust me on this, you CANNOT base your happiness off having a companion.

Aye

I'm aware

It's unhealthy