Go camping.

You might have to get some happy pills

I've been on the same happy pills for over a decade

Used to work great

Now they just put me to sleep.

Then you need new ones, set up a psychiatry appointment

SNRIs are basically magic compared to whatever shit they put you on a decade ago.

Trileptal and risperadol.

Off the top of my head those are tranqs.

I started on escatalipram about about a year ago

Epilepsy pill and an anger management pill

It's hard to ask someone else to love you if you don't love yourself.

Yeah...

So, working on #1 is a good next step

Put the work in - it's not fast, but you gotta do your part.

That's exactly what a therpist and/or psychiatrist would say too.

Sadmin like no homo but we love you homeboy

Mental health is physical health, gotta get out and do stuff.

Tbh I'd even take homo love at this point.

I've been giving out love for so long it feels like I don't have any left for myself

Love isn't finite my nigga, especially for yourself.

Fuckin love my homies man. But now they either leave me on seen or are six feet deep.

Or seven, brandon was pretty fat.

Then make some new friends. Join a club or some shit. Find people to connect with.

I'm such a social fucking retard that it's hard for me to connect with people

I'm always the sort of emotionless quiet dude

Takes work man, gotta put in work to get rewards.

Yeah dude, I know.

That requires me to put on a facade when I go out.

And I'm a shitty actor.

Then don't bother.

Putting on the facade

Just be yourself and if people like what they see they'll stick around.

I have an abrasive personality. Out of thousands of people in my school, I only ever hit it off with a couple.

And college? Fuck that

Buncha soft losers there

I know how that goes, but you'd be surprised what you find if you actually go looking.

The second people bothered trying to get to know me past the surface and saw what I'm really like they were turned off

I have some serious, deep rooted character flaws

No apathy, empathy

I'm insensitive