I hate my sister, she hates me, we're forced to live in the same place.
I don't have too many friends, suck in social settings, don't talk much, lonely, but we talked about that.
My parents are constantly in and out of employment, but regardless we're always too broke to anything we want to do, anyone who tells you money can't buy you happiness is full of shit because it most certainly can.
with the poor financial situation, I do what I do best and eavesdrop from across the house and I hear about how we might lose the house, the car, the pets can't get food, might have to file for bankruptcy (that came up like nine times last year) and all of this puts a great deal of stress on me, and since school is so fucking constant and full of work It makes me just want to stop. It's like being sick on a rollercoaster, I just want off the fucking ride. So I stop doing my work in school to get some mental down time but it doesn't work obviously, so this year I'm in the WOTP (work oriented training program) My future is over at this point, shit job after shit job, or just a cardboard box under an overpass. I've got a ridiculously negative outlook I can't shake, everything is pointless, everything is shit, the world is going to hell and everyone's too stupid, greedy, or offended by existence to care, I have no desire to keep living anymore really but I'm still breathing cause my bucket list is kinda reasonable and I don't have a gun, I have shit pain tolerance, I'm squeamish kinda, and I keep forgetting how to tie knots cause I don't do that too regularly.
