Message from @RUSE
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But life is about people you love and care
That was the hippest thing I ever wrote in foriegn language
Lmfao
You sound like Dame Pesos which makes you a little hard to take seriously but you're right
Yeah don't take me seriously I'm full of shit
Heh
Maybe in korean I can pull off some better shit idk
I think my problem is that I surround myself with people with the same self destructive tendencies that I have
My closest friend is borderline alcoholic and my second closest isnt far behind
My old friends all turn out to be massive drug addicts and I seem to be the only person I know that hasn't turned to substance abuse
you better avoid that shit like the plague
dont want to end up being fucked up on the street corner begging for 25c from strangers to get your next hit
Yeah
The ones that are drug addicts aren't really there when you talk to them
It's kind of sobering, really. Seeing how a form of escapism can turn into something worse than what you're trying to escape from
At this point I've stopped caring
There will never be a happy ending to any of this, no matter how you look at it.
Having someone to care about - that cares about you - kind of makes it easier to deal with but my life is kind of lacking in that department at the moment.
Maybe your family at least?
The only family member that isn't in another continent is my dad. I love him.
I've decided not to tell the story in general but since I don't know how much of it you read you're the lucky one
now ping me when you're done here so I can yeet this stuff
oof
is it a painful tale
I think it's painful.
that sucks
yeah
i yeeted most of my half
My subconscious is deathly afraid of things (things I like and do) defining me rather than myself and I think this is why I don't have an interest in anything and have no drive
How would I kill this?
Well I mean to some extent things define everyone
But you could try getting into hobbies that aren't really "things" like photography, rock climbing, etc
If I'm understanding you correctly idk
when i was 10 i was playing in an after school club and faceplanted into the floor, i fucked my front teeth up (chipped half of one off and loosened the other one), then after recovering and being given a crown, i later experienced another faceplant in a skatepark when i was 11, currently i have a crown and a slightly loosened but healed front tooth and i keep having nightmares about how it will fall off, i also have a bad feeling i'm dreaming an event that will happen later in life because i've experienced that before (deja vu) especially because i've had a series of nightmares involving it
Oof I feel ya man
When I was 12 I face planted onto concrete and both of my front teeth were chipped in half
I had to get two root canals, it hurt so fucking bad
And I can’t even get crowns til I’m 18
I've only had one filling in my life and the dentists who did it didn't even clean the tooth before filling it so the decay kept eating through and I had to get the tooth refilled
Gotta love NHS dentists using you as practise