At this point I've stopped caring

There will never be a happy ending to any of this, no matter how you look at it.

Having someone to care about - that cares about you - kind of makes it easier to deal with but my life is kind of lacking in that department at the moment.

Maybe your family at least?

The only family member that isn't in another continent is my dad. I love him.

oi i was reading that

I've decided not to tell the story in general but since I don't know how much of it you read you're the lucky one

now ping me when you're done here so I can yeet this stuff

oof

is it a painful tale

I think it's painful.

that sucks

yeah

i yeeted most of my half

My subconscious is deathly afraid of things (things I like and do) defining me rather than myself and I think this is why I don't have an interest in anything and have no drive

How would I kill this?

Well I mean to some extent things define everyone

But you could try getting into hobbies that aren't really "things" like photography, rock climbing, etc

If I'm understanding you correctly idk

when i was 10 i was playing in an after school club and faceplanted into the floor, i fucked my front teeth up (chipped half of one off and loosened the other one), then after recovering and being given a crown, i later experienced another faceplant in a skatepark when i was 11, currently i have a crown and a slightly loosened but healed front tooth and i keep having nightmares about how it will fall off, i also have a bad feeling i'm dreaming an event that will happen later in life because i've experienced that before (deja vu) especially because i've had a series of nightmares involving it

Oof I feel ya man

When I was 12 I face planted onto concrete and both of my front teeth were chipped in half

I had to get two root canals, it hurt so fucking bad

And I can’t even get crowns til I’m 18

I've only had one filling in my life and the dentists who did it didn't even clean the tooth before filling it so the decay kept eating through and I had to get the tooth refilled

Gotta love NHS dentists using you as practise

I fell over onto a fence when I was younger, and my teeth hit on the fence. my front teeth folded back (the end of my teeth cut the roof of my mouth) and I have absolutely no idea how they got fixed. the only fucked up thing about my mouth is that I have a bunch of scares on my lips now.

my younger once threw gardening sheers at me and landed on the side of my foot

never been the same since

I jumped out of a swing when I was a little shit for a dare, hit the ground face-first, now my jaw is slightly dislocated and one of my canines has grown outwards at a weird angle

gg

the main factor of that feel is that i have nightmares about losing the wobbly tooth and the fear of it becoming a reality judging by the record of nightmares i've had involving it

iow - deja vu

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Yo I wish more people would do that.

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