I've got a monster breathing down my neck called "My girlfriend's parent (other died a year ago, accually..) and brother smoke shit thats illegal (do the math) and risk the fact that she could go into a foster home or worse within 48 hours" and there's nothing i can fucking do about it except work and toil and do cardio + melatonin before i sleep otherwise the shit will keep me up at night and i wont fucking sleep

And I cant do any other job and the current job i have barely keeps up with the shit that i owe and need to spend money on

I try to be chill here, i try to be chill around people, but inside i feel corrupted to the bone with stress that i can't just "relax" or "meditate" away.

Goddamn, and it started creeping in right after i finished getting over my post-traumatic stress. All i got from the therapist was "wa wo wo wa" charlie brown talk fuckin hear yourself talk it'll make you feel better that's right.

So i straight up stopped going once i saw that pattern

Im sorry if i've gotten a bit on edge if you ever bring weed up @noobypropmaker I'm really trying.

It's fine fam

And I'm sorry to hear about what you've been dealing with, can't really give a proper response in this situation in all honesty

There's no good way out. There's no way out.

Just gotta get through it and then the next shit will happen, and then the next shit happens and i'll be doing this forever.

I'm a thin-skinned bitch sometimes because god fucking damnit, if some weird conflict or civil war accually happened EVERYTHING i work for and stress so goddamn much over would mean nothing.

I've already flushed 3 years of hard effort down the toilet and i dont wanna do that again.

I understand that feeling, was one i felt repeatedly a while ago. Again i know i can't really say or do anything but best thing i can say is try to be more open about this sort of stuff when you can, sometimes letting all this out like you are right now can help a little

Hope things can get better for you and your gf

Just gotta fuckin survive. Everything else is secondary.

Just hold on if you can. I suggest trying to talk to the more adult members of the server as they'll have a better understanding. Even if they seem childish at times

I'd be stupid to burden them.

Still, the option is there if you need it

if something really does happen like all these fucked up politics i keep seeing more and more, i've got a motorcycle, i've got a sleeping bag and I've got someone to pick up.

Try not too think about the politics too much, trust me it's a really really dark area to go into. You don't need to ignore it. But just try to keep it to a minimum

So how long until pasty finds this, huh? How long until he turns it into a bunch of copypastas with the bot? How long until i pay for this short bout of relief?

Look fam

The feels channel isn't meant for that

It's nit meant to shitpost

It's.nit meant for jokes

It's meant to be open and honest about real life issues

Why do you think i have not said anything?

Because you've seen us shit on people that deserved tobget shit on

But you're nit one of those people

Im turning into it though, I see the signs.

Look

People turn on you so quick.

I know

But so long as you ise the appropriate channels

And don't threaten any of the mods

And try nit to take half the shit in the server seriously

You'll be fine

If you need proof look at tersh pinned comment in this channel

I remember when i read through that the first time

Well he was being serious

Yeah, it sounded to the tune that shitposting went bad in this channel