Message from @SheepTeeth
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self-consciousness, maybe? Could be something else though, you don't really come off too much in that way.
It's kind of a reoccurring ptsd, usually my dreams follow a bunch of set themes (usually me trying to do normal things as a demon or trying to get married)
I still have nightmares about being trapped at school and having to escape because no one believes I'm an adult lol
lol
you ever try seeding your dreams to try and mitigate the nightmares?
When I was in school, sometimes I didn't get picked up until 8 or 9 o'clock at night and school got out at 2
holy shit
Yeah, I usually have some kind of story or scene playing out in my head as I lay down and fall asleep
If I'm having a really, really bad time, I'll listen to Erik Satie or something similar, something orchestratial without singing or lyrics
When I was in school and living with my mom (when she was neglecting me a lot and being very emotionally abusive), I would fall asleep to Satie's Gymnopédies on loop
that was the one I clicked on
I'm an uncultured savage
pretty sure I've heard it in media before, but had no idea who it was
I really loved Camille Saint-Saëns as well
well, that's where that The Faint album title comes from
>lurnin
There's a specific Les Baxter song I listened to when I would walk home alone in the rain when I was in art school
this is a solid mix. Sounds super 60s, as it should, but lot of really modern moments in there too.
especially around that sax
Whenever I hear that song though, I feel like I should be walking around in the rain and it makes me feel a bit lonely
vocal melody lends itself to that too
music kind of comes and goes for me. When I'm in that phase I binge it like I'm burning through seasons of something. Usually a lot of it trying to focus or maintain a specific mood.
doing a lot of sitting around and thinking
usually when I hit a depressive slump, but I'm stupid and tend to listen to shit that's going to drive me deeper into it.
Really like this act:
If I'm feeling the ``real big bad sad`` I'll listen to Current 93
>innermost light
Specifically I'll listen to "I have a special plan for this world"
two parts in this really reminds me of a couple thing
special plan sounds so much like SP in a lot of spots, less noise though
Special Plan is nihilism at it's peak, that's what I feel
It's awful
I haven't quite gotten to the point of listening to it for awhile, I used to listen to it on a regular basis but now I'm just like ``TRIPLE SIX FIVE FORKED TONGUE``
lol
ever come across these guys:
Tfw today’s my birthday
It’s legal for me to drink shit now, it’s not like I’ve been doing that since I was 17 though