when Im not working on a "real job" i get depressed

depending on what you're doing

for real

Just as a point of practicality.

the feeling of "work done" you get on your way home

is really nice

now i got to work from home, now and then I fap, watch videos, get distracted

i dont get the feeling that i left my best on the workplace

and now i can do whatever i want

my conciousness gets heavy

u should try, really

@haku. Best other option is learn a coding language. Might take you a year to build a portfolio. Python with little-to-no experience will get you into most places at $30-35k (USD) a year.

i do C++

done some school shit

wanna get away with an Associates

Python's just C++ with more shortcuts.

Wrap that up and find a place that'll pay you to do it. Sock away what you can and spend at least 2% of your take-home on Udemy learning another language. Java, Ruby, Swift, whatever.

i do know basic java

and basic assemble language

Then work on improving what you know.

Like I said, you don't suddenly lose the ability to learn new things no matter how old you get, really... but the difficulty to learn those new skills increases exponentially after 25.

jeez

It's a compounding thing. You didn't work on your portfolio because you didn't learn javascript because you didn't study enough because you didn't stick to the habit because you ingrained fucking around because you weren't building foundational behaviors. Etc. etc.

so it doesn't matter much that i haven't had a job?

You're 25, yeah? Or 24?

When I was your age I'd just dropped out of seminary less than 4 years prior, spent almost a year having a surfer chick pay my bills while I fucked off at her apartment all day, wound up homeless for a little longer, and never held more than a kitchen or construction job for more than 6 months at a time.

You're not going to get a very strong "you should have been working" opinion from me because I've got no room to talk.

I cleaned office buildings over the weekend for spending money in college, but my parents foot the bill for tuition. Only thing I paid for in nearly 6 years out of pocket was my car, food, gas, and the odd t-shirt. It's never too late to start doing something, man. Believe me.

yeah i actually have paths handed to me

i can easily get a security guard job

i have all necessary materials through... connections

Volunteer for night shift. Cushy job, low effort, affords you plenty of time to read.

guess it's back to building a resume then

Pro tip: write your resume to fit the job you're applying for.

If it asks about you being a self-starter and independently motivated, hype the shit out of that.

But, it's also the 21st century, so bend the truth, but never lie. Omit, never explicitly state something false.

i like honesty but is it really a bad thing to lie a little to these companies?

Ever watch a YouTuber nuke their career with a white lie on a livestream?

nope

You'll experience it firsthand if you do it at an interview.

well if it nukes you then it wasn't a white lie, was it?