out of shape tho, all size and puked after a 30 second match

@GingerSnaps have you ever had a relationship end badly and not understand why? Cause that was the source of my rage

used to actually hang around him, was also at my bus stop

It was that no one adequately prepared me

never had to fight anyone tho

@Reaper no, i don't think i can say so. Most of the time it was my fault more or less. I let them treat me the way they did, i treated them poorly, i didn't fuck them good enough, etc.

I used to just walk away because i always felt like i never knew howt o fight properly

then got into martial arts to learn

@Sigma Most of the time you never have to, you just don't let yourself walk over and it doesn't have to come to punches

@GingerSnaps Depending on your personality you can go from denial to depression and skip anger. I personally had anger at the same time as depression but the depression was stronger. So I didn't seem angry much, just in small moments, but they weren't fun. I hurt a lot of feeling in that time period.

@GingerSnaps not everyone goes through rage like you I copped to most of my own mistakes so my rage was short, you may just be uber rational

and i was scared of getting in trouble by my dad, but turns out he had deal with people fucking with him and always advocated me defending myself if need be

@Reaper Yeah this is the source of the problem imo, we are taught a big lie growing up and we never see the thing comming

I spent the longest time in redpill depression and even though it's been a couple years, I still go back there from time to time. I just think it's a shitty deal

Everyone knows what they're doing until they get punched

@Gaarak yea it sucks looking back on your own actions and seeing how bad you handled things, and how easily it could have been different

@EmptyEagle @Reaper maybe you guys are right. If anything i'm struggling with the depression and denial stages. Like i really struggle with the concept of AWALT, especially finding supportive views on the matter.

I've never actually been punched unless they had boxing or mma gloves on

being punched in the face by an actual fist would hurt a bit

@Reaper I am not a "god person" but at the same time it's fascinating the "wisdom" that religion could forsee with their doctrines around that

Honestly I'm not sure you can every really get rid of either anger or depression. You just focus on something else more so it doesn't show up anymore. But stop doing that thing and you'll return to your previous state.

@Gaarak cuz women have always been like that xD

@GingerSnaps that makes sense I believe Awalt can only be accepted through the build up of personal experience nobody can convince you of awalt with convo only

yeah but the system never went down l ike this or did it ?

Bullying is almost never physical tho. If someone is running their mouth and you hit them, you're going to jail as an adult. So really you gotta have a sharp wit and no ego. Agree and amplify

When you start to see awalt in irl it is one of the most bitter pills took me about 3-4 years after I went mgtow to see they all carry the virus to some extent, the system itself injects the uninfected

so true, and worst of all was seeing it in my family

it s mind bending

Women want the same basic things, Security, stability, Social status,

@Gaarak same, used to think my mom was a unicorn ..WRONG

they're lying if they say looks don't matter

@Reaper I'm getting closer though if anything even just if anecdotally via convo and others experiences. Shit the cconvo about youtubers and the age we live in helped me make some peace over my last break up.

they say those things are shallow, but that's what they want

men want good looking women

you can say that's shallow

but that's just selction

@GingerSnaps AWALT also affects me similarly but I just have to beat into myself that 1. Even if a nawalt exist, they would be hard to find and 2. The countries laws still exist with your nawalt. So I'm pretty much done with the idea. The MMN still nags at me a lot but I can see there isn't a point.

@Sigma depending on why it's either shallow or deep cause good looks and a good figure signal good genes for breeding.

it's how we're wired. High attraction and Social status are markers of being biologically fit

@GingerSnaps it will happen all over the place some of my biggest irl pills, we're in store lineups watching arguments or overhearing women talk to each other when they think no men are around (or don't care)

That's what i mean, from a biological standpoint and how mating is done