Because slee schedule is whack?

>doesnt go to sleep early because if I do I wake up in the middle of the night

12-4am

Like 9 to 10 ish

I just got used to it

And never adjusted

I mean

Idk I mostly just dissociate by playing video games etc.

Well do you have to get up that early for a job or something?

Well yeah but I don’t have shit to do

Teachers don’t care about homework

Don’t work out at least not at home

The only time I feel like getting up is when I want to hop on a game or something early

I just want to do stuff before I sleep because I feel like I’m wading so much time and when I’m asleep I want to just sleep for as long as possible because I’m usually dreading school

It just sucks man

Having 0 self esteem and nothing making you feel good anymore

you should research stoicism my dude

Some of it is because I’m awful at school and I don’t really get along with people there etc. Everything just feels like it’s pushing me down, like I have some natural disadvantage because of some childhood trauma shit that I can’t do anything about

And what I want is good result

S

For later in life

At least I think I do

No

It’s because I like science and shit

I feel like if I can do something in that field

Than maybe my life won’t be wasted

Physics

Some of it is the only stuff that really makes sense to me

Even though I’m fucked with math

But even then maybe I’m wrong and I’m just a dummy

Yeah history is dope if tought right

But it’s not dumb shit you learned in high school

It’s an actual practical application of it

That’s what fucking pisses me off the most about math

It never tells you what the fuck you’re doing it for

It just tells you to do it

That’s part of why I like physics

Because it’s like oh yeah that decided by that = THE FUCKING FORCE IT TAKES TO PUSH SOMETHING

What do you mean by that

Yeah it’s the study of energy