I understand

Me neither

Won't say what you should do cuz we're on the same boat

All I can say is: you're not alone

Stick to your kin. We take care of each other

@Foxhound fuck dude I'm praying for you

Honestly?

I barely knew her

But she was always, ALWAYS, so fucking kind to me.

Everyone was busy bullying the fuck out of me and she was just nice.

Why is it always the ones that are so good that go so soon?

Because the good/intelligent see reality as it is

Two edged knife unfortunately

I don't understand it.

Idiots and retards (like pedos and sort) can't see nothing if not themselves. Good people tend to see more than themselves, they know other people have feelings. But they get emotionally vulnerable

Dunno how to explain

@Sir Harndes @Foxhound

Awareness is pain because you realize theres more suffering than what you're feeling. Even if you have compassion fatigue, your awareness makes you realize you effect others realities or their awarenesses as well.

@mcguyver123 awareness doesn't have to be pain.

Just have to learn how to separate yourself emotionally from what others are going through but still choose to do what's right for them

IE you guys get shitty hands at life sometimes and while that sucks, and I feel for ya, I choose to focus on what I can actually do to help as opposed to getting wrapped in it emotionally.

@Foxhound I had a very similar situation when in was in high school, a girl I wasnt to close with but we always smiled at each other and had small talk. She killed herself, because of her asshole boyfriend, they had planned to do a couple suicide and be chickened out last minute to go to a party and abandoned her. So she did it. Alone. Fucked with my head so hard, as well as my best freind. We tried to turn him in and get him arrested but the police/ magistrate wouldnt do anything. Fuck them. If I ever see that kid Idk what I would do but it wouldnt be good. Anyways enough about me, at first there wasnt a hoir I would go, then a day, now it's a week, that I dont think of her. I try to live worthy of the live that was stolen from her. It isnt easy, but it gets easier with time and meditation of your choice.

Like I said, try and live the life that she cant.

That makes 3 with the last year.

Why the fuck did I get the tattoo to support suicide awareness if it still fucking happens

@Foxhound bad shit will always happen

We can only accept what we can't change.

And be the best we can be in light of it

You're good people

Wish I had more to say, but im swimming in a pool of shit. There ain't much good thoughts that comes from me

All I can say is: im (still) here

And I hope everything gets better

I've learned a valuable lesson today: even those you call brothers would hamstring you without second thought. I can't believe I've been in the mil for almost two years and am just now learning this lesson for real.

@/K/owboy blue falcons are a thing bud

Un-fucking-fortunately.

@/K/owboy not all "brothers" are like that. Deadbeat, neo and I actually avoid fucking one another over even if it means dealing with bullshit ourselves.

It doesnt matter what line of work you're in, they exist, you've just gotta push on

And I'll say a better part of this group would bend over backwards to help another out. You shoulda went to richmond lol

We bent Each other over in weird ways...

Facts

I still have that candid pic @jecc13 snapped of us at Squids

I could believe you dudes went and did that lmao

Yeah. I shoulda...